Jinchuuriki's Notes

Brush Strokes

2012-01-26T00:58:00.003+08:00

Simula nung nag aral ako ulit medyo hindi ako gaano nakakapag drawing ng manga style, ewan ko ba siguro para maiba lang? Madalas ko kasing prinapractice ngayon ay Digital Painting. Siguro kasi nung bata pa ako mas nauna akong humawak ng brush at watercolor kesa sa pag dadrawing ng manga style kaya siguro parang bumabalik sakin yung pagka hilig ko sa painting haha!

2011

2011-12-31T00:46:00.005+08:00

May napala ba ako sa mga ginawa ko ngayong 2011?

Meron din naman ata kahit papaano, pero mukang trial talaga ang year 2011 ko. Well simulan ko na lang muna kung ano ang mga na realize ko ngayong taon.

Na realize ko na mahirap ipaglaban ang isang tao na ayaw ipaglaban siya.

Na realize ko mahirap umibig mag-isa.

Na realize ko ang daming taon ang sinayang ko para mag-aral tungkol sa ART.

Na realize ko kung sino at ano ba talaga ang definition ng tunay na mga kaibigan.

Na realize ko ang dami ko palang gusto gawin sa buhay ko.

Na realize ko lifetime study pala ang ART.

Na realize ko na gustong gusto ko pala talaga ang ART.

Na realize ko kung gaano ako ka-frail.

Na realize ko kung gaano ako ka-tanga.

Ayan tapos na ang realizations of year 2011 hahaha! pero pag iisip ko nga yung mga nangyari sakin ngayong taon minsan gusto ko na lang umiyak buong araw. alam mo yung tipong gabi-gabi ka umiiyak dahil sa problema tps susundan nanaman ng isang problema(oo nangyari sakin ito). sobrang nakaka depress na gusto ko na lang matulog mag hapon pero hindi mo magawa at hindi mo masabi sa mga magulang mo at yan na din ang naging problema ko... hindi ko masabi.... dahil minsan na iinis din ako sa pamilya ko na parang wala ka nang pupuntahan kundi mag mukmok sa sulok. alam mo yun? yun point na gusto mo nang tumalon sa tuktok ng isang building dahi sobrang nakaka-depress at wala kang mapuntahan, mapag labasan ng galit, inis, sama ng loob. Hindi ko nga alam kung paano na lang ako biglang na gising... Na realize...

Ngayong 2011 ko din nalaman kung sino-sino ba ang tunay sa amin mag-kakaibigan at nag papasalam ako sa kanila, tinulungan niyo nanaman ako kahit minsan parang balewala kayo sakin... sorry.

Naranasan ko umibig, naranasan ko masaktan, naranasan ko mag mukmok, naranasan ko bumangon...

Pero pasalamat parin ako dahil natuto ako dun. Lin hangang ngayon mahal parin kita pero alam ko isang araw lilipas na ito, sana maging maayos ang lahat sayo...

Nakakamiss nga ang mga taong dumaan at naging parte ng buhay mo...

Lola pasensya na hindi mo na ako makikita na maging successful pero sana gabayan mo parin ako, Lola I miss you...

Madami din akong na kilalang mga tao ngayong 2011. Mga instructor ko sa First Academy, classmates, new friends, new crush LOL!

Kay sir francis salamat sayo sir kundi dahil sayo hindi ko ma-rerealize kung gaano ko kamahal ang ART. alam ko malayo pa ako sayo pero pipilitin ko habulin ka hahaha!

Kuya keiji salamat sayo lalo na yung times na naliligaw ako ng landas, na para bang bigla mo na lang ako pinulot at binalik sa tamang kalsada. salamat talaga...

Sana mas madami pa akong matutunan next year lalo na sa ART hahaha!

Oh pano na ba? 2012 na bukas? 2012 I'll be good to you so please be good to me too!

UST Paskuhan 2011

2011-12-18T00:22:00.002+08:00

Napadpad ako ng UST kahapon dahil paskuhan, actually kinulit ko lang yung crush ko na papasukin ako ng UST for Paskuhan hahaha!

Anyways dun na tayo sa Paskuhan, Enjoy naman yung paskuhan kahit first time ko ma-experience ito. Iba't ibang banda ang tumugtog, nanjan ang Paraluman,Sandwich,6cyclemind,Rico Blanco at Urbandub. Syempre hiyawan pag tumutugtog ang mga banda at isa na ako sa nakikisigaw lalo na yung part ng kumanta ang Sandwich ng "Sugod"

Pero hindi ko malilimutan yung part na sobrang awkward talaga na nakaupo kami ni crush sa likod ng mga food stall kumakain tapos yung Paraluman bago sila kumanta nag salita yung vocalist nila ng "Etong kantang ito na susunod namin na kakantahin ay para sa mga taong tuwing nakikita nila ang crush nila ay tila nag iiba ang kulay ng paligid nila" sabay tugtog ng kanta nilang "Tabi" grabe na windang ako dahil alam ni crush na crush ko siya at siya lng kasi kasama ko XD TANG INA THIS HAHAHAHA!

Tapos nun nag fireworks display na sa UST, sayang lang hindi ko narecord lahat ng buong fireworks display dahil kinulang yung memory ng camera! hahaha! pag tapos nun nameet ko din yung ka-dorm niya na medyo kakulitan ko sa Facebook hahaha!

Hindi ko din alam pero huling paskuhan na kasi ni crush yun, tinatanong ko nga siya asan mga classmates niya pero hindi daw niya alam. na isip ko din ok lang kaya sa kanya na ako lang kasama niya buong paskuhan o cgro nahiya lang siya iwan ako mag-isa sa loob ng UST... oh well XD

Hi?

2011-12-05T13:06:00.003+08:00

Ohai crush? alam mo ba kahit crush kita hindi ko alam gagawin ko sayo hahaha! eh kasi naman busy ka mag aral dahil mataas ang pangarap mo sa buhay which is good at ako din busy din mag aral dahil mataas din ang pangarap ko sa buhay haha! Isa pa lagi lang kasi tayo nag bibiruan ng kung ano-anong topic kaya baka isipin mo joke time lang ako sayo XD

Onga pala on the serious side napa ouch lng ako nung sinabi mo may kadate ka haha!

Ewan... Ayoko lang siguro ng half baked love story which is hindi pa ako ready saka baka hindi mo din ako gusto hahaha!

Kung mabasa mo man ito ata nahulaan mo na ikaw yun, sana ok parin turingan natin :P

Siguro "Tiis Tiis" na lng ulit.

Respect is earned, Not given

2011-11-30T01:50:00.003+08:00

Minsan sumilip ako ng Valhalla at may ilang old time GM's parin ng iba't ibang guild ang nakakakilala sakin kht na si Seraphim II na ang gamit ko, Nakakatuwa lng isipin na nandun parin ung respeto nila skn bilang GM ng RB pag kausap ko sila.

Ang masasabi ko lng talaga ay hindi ko makukuha ang respetong iyon kundi din dahil sa mga members na bumuo ng RB at nag tulong tulong maliit man o malaki para buhatin ang RB... Kaya ayun... Salamat. *suot ng cap hangang matakpan muka ko*

Busybe

2011-11-05T12:14:00.003+08:00

Nakaraos na ako sa unang dalawang linggo ng klase ko, medyo na lito ako lalo na nung unang linggo dahil ngayon na lang ulit ako kailangan umalis ng bahay at may kalayuan pa ang puuntahan ko, saka hindi din ako sanay na habang nag dradrawing may tumitingin sa ginagawa ko. Ganun kasi si sir Francis at isa pang nakakapagod na parte ay yung sangkatutak na assignments dahil ako lang ang nag iisang studyante ni sir Francis na pumapasok ng buong weekdays, dahil ang klase ko ng M-W-F ay character ilustration at sa T-TH naman ay digital painting kaya na tatambakan ako hahaha! Maliban dyan medyo ok naman na, sana lang ay kayanin ng katawan ko XD

Student life

2011-10-21T13:18:00.002+08:00

Wala nang isang lingo at mag aaral na ulit ako, yes MAG AARAL NA ULIT ako after soooooooooooooooo many years hahaha!

Syempre excited na medyo kinakabahan dahil nga kelan pa ako huling "pumasok" LOL. anyway sana maging masaya naman ang bagong adventure ng buhay ko at matapos ko itong Multimedia Art course.

Yeah men! (Influence ng pakikinig sa boys night out)

Avril Lavigne - Wish You Were Here

2011-10-05T02:41:00.000+08:00

Lyrics:

I can be tough
I can be strong
But with you, it's not like that at all

There's a girl
who gives a shit
behind this wall
You've just walked through it

And I remember all those crazy things you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here.
All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it, just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
here, here, here
I wish you were here.
Damn, Damn, Damn
What I'd do to have you
near, near, near
I wish you were here.

I love the way you are
It's who I am, don't have to try hard
We always say, say like it is
And the truth is that I really miss

All those crazy things you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here.
All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it, just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

[Chorus:]
Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
here, here, here
I wish you were here.
Damn, Damn, Damn
What I'd do to have you
near, near, near
I wish you were here.

[Bridge:]
No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go

(let go let go let go let go)

No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go

(let go let go let go let go let go let go let go)

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
here, here, here
I wish you were here (I wish you were)
Damn, Damn, Damn
What I'd do to have you
near, near, near
I wish you were here.

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
here, here, here
I wish you were here.
Damn, Damn, Damn
What I'd do to have you
near, near, near
I wish you were here.

----------------

And yeah... I wish you were here...

Dreaming With a Broken Heart

2011-09-16T16:37:00.000+08:00

Lyrics:

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
Then waking up is the hardest part
You roll outta bed and down on your knees
And for a moment you can hardly breathe
Wondering was she really here?
Is she standing in my room?
No she's not, 'cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The giving up is the hardest part
She takes you in with her crying eyes
Then all at once you have to say goodbye
Wondering could you stay my love?
Will you wake up by my side?
No she can't, 'cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....

Now do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hands
Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hands?
Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hands?
Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my , roses in my hands?

Would you get them if i did?
No you won't, 'cause you're gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part

Leaving my sword and spear

2011-09-11T01:03:00.002+08:00

Kahapon na tapos ang huling WOE ng Season two RPC.

So ano na gagawin ni Seraphim II? Ibabaon niya muna ang espada at sibat niya na nakatusok sa lupa hangang sa balikan niya ito...

That's all

2011-08-25T03:28:00.002+08:00

Yuki: Aren't you forcing yourself?...

Utsumi: What?... yeah, I am.

Utsumi: I mean, think about it. It hasn't been a month since that happened, right? If I told you that I wasn't forcing myself to act happy then it'd be like I had amnesia or something.

Yuki: I-I guess you're right...

Utsumi: Yeah I am. Don't underestimate how weak my heart is.

Utsumi: But... even so, I was really looking forward to having some fun with you, Yuki.

Utsumi: After what happened, I was thinking things over. I thought about what you said, and what I did... I think that unconsciously I caused too much trouble over you being my "Girlfriend".

Utsumi: I really thought about what should I do from here on. Ultimately the one conclusion I came to is that I REALLY DO LOVE YOU. THAT'S ALL

Utsumi: Even if you're not my girlfriend, or if you were to end up hating me, that's the one thing I'm sure of.

Good Ending chapter 93

A chapter that really reflected on my heart...

Bahala Na

2011-08-11T21:52:00.004+08:00

Nung Monday ang "Pa-Siyam" ni lola, Ilang araw na din ang lumipas pero hirap parin ako sa aking dinadalang galit sa mga nangyari...

Kailangan ko na ba ulit pulutin ang sarili ko upang mag hilom na ang mga sugat sa puso ko dahil sa nangyari kay lola...

Pero baka hindi ko na sila mapatawad sa mga ginawa nila...

Bahala na...

Solitude

2011-08-05T13:39:00.002+08:00

Two days ago linibing na si lola...

Ang sakit isip ang mga nangyari, kung bakit humantong sa ganito ang lahat.

Mula sa pag aaway ni papa at nilang mag kakapatid nung buhay pa si lola, hangang sa na wala na si lola nag aaway parin sila...

Tang ina! sawang sawa na ako!! hindi na sila na hiya kay lola!! hangang ngayon pinag aawayan parin nila ang pera ni lola!!

Simula sa pagka gising ko hangang pag tulog ko, yan ang naririnig ko! tang ina! patahimikin niyo na si lola!!

Tang ina niyo! KAININ NIYO PERA NI LOLA!!!

I'm sick of this family!!

Ikinahihiya ko sila at naging kamag-anak ko sila!

Gusto ko mapag isa...

I want my solitude...

God knows

2011-08-02T11:31:00.004+08:00

Alam ng diyos kung ano ginawa nilang kasalanan.

Alam ng diyos kung sino ang tunay sa amin.

Alam ng diyos kung sino ang tunay na may malasakit kay lola.

Alam ng diyos kung ano ang tunay na nangyari.

Alam ng diyos kung sino ang totoong nag mamahal sakin.

Alam ng diyos kung sino ang mga backstabber.

Rest well

2011-07-31T05:21:00.002+08:00

Rest in peace lola... I love you

Promise

2011-07-14T03:55:00.002+08:00

I'll beat it in time!!

Even if you don't care!!

A promise is a promise! 8years? Fuck YEAH!!

Wala eh, ikaw talaga

2011-06-27T02:47:00.001+08:00

Wala eh, hindi kita matiis.

Ikaw tlga eh.

Saan?

2011-06-23T11:31:00.002+08:00

Nasaan na ba ako?

Tila unti-unti na akong na wawala sa tamang pupuntahan ko, unti-unti mo na akong inaalis.

Hangang kelan ko aakyatin ang bundok na tila kahit ang mga experto ay hindi kaya akyatin?

Nasaan na ba ako?

Ikaw pa ba yung nakilala ko nuon?

Nasaan ka na ba?

Babalik ka pa ba?

Saan kita hahanapin? Sa isang lugar na tayo lang nakaka-alam ngunit imposibleng puntahan.

Sabagay IKAW ang lumihis ng landas.

Magagalit ba ako? Wala naman mangyayari kung magagalit ako.

Siguro nga kailangan ko na bumaba ng bundok at mag tanim ng magagandang bulaklak, para pag gising ko may babati sakin ng maganda.

Pero kung sabagay mas mabuti nang ako ang masaktan, kaysa ako ang mag kulang.

Mas mabuti na yun...

Lalake ako eh.

Words

2011-06-20T01:52:00.002+08:00

"Love"

A one word that means so much!

"I love you too"

A response that means everything

Happy birthday

2011-06-09T02:12:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday sakin! salamat, sinira mo araw ko!

Woke up

2011-05-19T07:34:00.003+08:00

"Your pains ate God's way to rouse you from slumber. Pain is your wake-up call to awaken, to look deeper into yourself , to adjust the course of your life. God tries to be as gentle as possible, and only if you ignore the call does the pain gets stronger"

Ngayong araw na ito gigising na ako... Gigising na ako para ipag-laban kung ano ang gusto namin... Hindi kita isusuko...

"I love you a thousand times"

Two days

2011-05-16T02:48:00.003+08:00

Hindi ko alam kung paano ba nangyari yung lumipas na dalawang araw, pakiramdam ko nanaginip lang ako at pag gising ko nandito na ulit ako sa manila...

Pagka-tapos nito sigurado ako mas magiging mas mahirap pa lalo ang lahat pero eto ang pinili namin. Pero kahit mahirap eto na yun... wala nang atrasan.

It's been years - Ragnarok

2011-05-12T14:59:00.002+08:00

Ilang taon na ba ako nag lalaro ng Ragnarok Online? 7 years? 8 years? may napala ba ako? meron naman, na meet ko mga friends ko at naka-experience ng iba't ibang saya,lungkot sa buhay.

Disappointed na ba ako sa Ragnarok? well... sort of...

Disappointed ako dahil unbalance na simula nung lumabas ang mga 3rd jobs.

Disappointed ako dahil wasak na ang economy ng Valhalla server.

Disappointed ako dahil unti-unti nang na pupuno ng mga bot ang Valhalla.

Disappointed ako dahil kibit balikat na lang ang LU sa mga hinaing ng mga loyal players nila.

Disappointed ako..... pag katapos nang mahabang taon... Championship trophy hindi man lang kita mahahawakan....

Alam ko sasabihin ng pangalawang pamilya ko na Seraphim Guild bakit kailangan ko tumigil, pwede naman mag lie-low. Alam ko yan, mahal ko kayo pero hindi naman sa laro natitigil ang pag kakaibigan natin. Patawad pero tatapusin ko na ung pag titiis ko sa ginagawa ng LU sa Ragnarok dahil ayaw ko mag laro kung hindi na ako nasisiyahan.

Ang masasabi ko lang para sa Seraphim ay "Mag enjoy kayo sa gusto niyo, abutin niyo ang mga pangarap niyo hindi lang sa Ragnarok"

Iba talaga ung "una" eh dahil ang Ragnarok Online ay an

g unang Online game ko... Kaya mananatili ito sa puso ko...

At the end of the day laro lang ang Ragnarok Online, Merong ending... Lahat ng bagay na tatapos.

SALAMAT...

Annihilation Guild

Fury Guild

Absolute Supremacy Guild

Revamped-D-Resurrection Guild

Innovator's Guild

Seraphim Guild

At higit sa lahat...

Revamped_Blasphemy Guild

Goodbye Ragnarok Online it's been years!

Empty yet sweet

2011-05-02T10:47:00.003+08:00

April 30 nang umalis kami ni Gab papuntang Baguio, mga 5hrs mahigit ang byahe... pag dating naman ng Baguio gabi na buti na lang at mabait si dyosang ate shawie Raiza at pinatuloy niya kami sa bahay nila haha! ang nakakatawa lang kami balot na balot sa panglamig tapos si Raiza naka duster lang haha! natawa talaga ako dun eh!

Kina umagahan dumeretcho na kami sa ospital kung saan na admit si Lin, pero pag dating namin dun wala na pala siya naka uwi na pala sa bahay nila...

Tumawag ako kay Lin tinanong ko kung nasa bahay na nga nila siya at oo nandun na daw siya kaya nag desisyon kami na pumunta sa bahay nila lin pero half way papunta sa kanila nag text ung kapatid niya na wag na kami tumuloy dahil magagalit daw ang dad nila, Nag text ulit ung kapatid ni lin na mag hintay na lang kami sa SM ng mga 2pm at susubukan daw niya ilabas si Lin, so ano pa nga ba magagawa namin ni Gab kundi mag hintay.

Mga 11:30am kami dumating sa SM at nag kanya-kanyang gala muna kami ni Gab... 1:30pm nag text sakin si Gab punta na daw ako sa may sinehan... at ayun nga nandun na si Lin...

Alam ko na isasagot niya pero tinanong ko parin si lin kung kilala niya ako pero hindi daw... madami akong tinanong kung tanda niya ang mga ilang bagay pero wala daw... Since malapit lang ang Burnham park sa SM nag lakad lakad muna kami sa park at iniwan muna kami ni Gab para makapag usap kaming dalawa ni Lin.

Umupo at nag kwentuhan lang kami ni Lin mag hapon... Kwinento ko kung ano siya nuon at bakit siya na ospital... Nag tanong ako kung may na-aalala ba siya na kahit ano ang tanda lang niya ay pangalan ng lalake "Elvin" na gulat ako... Sinabi ko ako yun tinanong niya eh bakit dex name ko sa cp niya at yun mahabang kwento ulit ginawa ko... hinawakan ko ang kamay niya habang nag kwekwento ako... hindi naman siya nag reklamo habang hawak ko kamay niya... ang cute ni Lin kahit galing sa sakit yun nga lang pumayat, na papangiti ako pag sinasabi niya "wag mo nga ako tignan masyado natutunaw ako" siya parin talaga yun nakalimot lang talaga... tinanong niya ako ano ba daw nagustuhan niya sakin nuon at naging bf niya ako ang na sabi ko lang "hindi ko alam loves" napa yuko na lang siya at nag sorry siya kasi hindi talaga niya matandaan...

Mga 5pm kumain kami sa Mcdo pag tapos nun umuwi na siya kasi dadating na yung dad nila, sabi ko ihahatid ko na siya pero wag na daw kasi baka makita pa ako ng tita niya... Bago siya sumakay ng taxi hinalikan niya ako sa cheeks...

Napa tingin na lang ako habang palayo yung taxi...

Nung gabi din nun umuwi na din kami ng Manila....

Hindi ko alam kung kelan babalik ang alaala niya... Pero kahit anong mangyari si Haelin parin siya... yun mahal ko...

Next Move

2011-04-29T17:10:00.003+08:00

Masakit na ang puso ko sa mga nangyayari sakin at eto ang pamilya ko sumasabay pa.... Pinipilit ko ma-distract sa ibang bagay dahil ayaw ko malungkot buong araw,lingo o buwan. Pero nakakainis na kasi minsan.... Nag susumbatan nanaman sila tungkol sa mga nakaraan... Lumipas na ang mga taon malalaki na kami nila kuya, nasa wastong edad na kami para maintindihan ang mga ganung bagay... Nakakayamot kung kelan ko kailangan ang supporta ng pamilya ko saka pa sila nag susumbatan... Kahapon ko lang nakita si Mama na nag self-pity...... Na awa ako... Nakita ko ang sarili ko....

Saan na ako pupunta? Ewan.... mag hahanap ng lugar kung saan pwede...

Lin be safe...

In right position?

2011-04-14T14:00:00.002+08:00

Nahihirapan ako sa mga nangyayari sa guild namin ngayon, kung sa bagay labas naman talaga ako sa mga nangyayari ang kaso lang kasi isa ako sa mga "hurado" dahil ako ang dating guild master, minsan iniisip ko dapat bang isama pa ako sa mga "hurado"? ewan ko eh... Nakakainis lang isip na kahit isa ako sa mga "hurado" eh wala akong maitulong sa mga usaping malalalim tulad ng mga personal issues sa pagitan ng mga members...

Hay....

Deep wounds

2011-03-14T17:46:00.005+08:00

March 11, 2011 nag ka lindol sa may Miyagi prefecture ng Japan at na sundan ito ng tsunami...

Bakit ko ito kinukwento? dahil si Haelin na aking gf ay nasa Miyagi prefecture nung nangyari ang lindol...

Mga ilang oras din bago ko siya na-contact sabi niya ok lang daw sila kaso na banga daw ung sinasakyan nila kaya may bali ung kamay niya, pero sa isip-isip ko buti nga at yun lng ang natamo niya....

Kinabukasan ng umaga naka balik na sila sa yokohama dahil dun talaga sila nag ii-stay. kinagabihan ng March 12 sunundo sila ng korean embassy para bumalik ng south korea(1/2 korean 1/4 filipino 1/4 chinese kasi siya at ang papa niya ay nasa south korea)

Madaling araw na ng March 13 siya naka balik ng south korea at dun na din niya nag pa gamot sa bali nung kamay niya...

Pero hindi ang mga galos at bali sa kamay niya ang pinaka masamang nangyari sa kanya kundi ang trauma... kaninang umaga kausap ko siya sa telepono hindi siya maka-tulog dahil nasaksihan niya mismo ung tsunami... gusto ko umiyak nung naririnig kong umiiyak na siya... pero hindi pwede, kailangan ko maging matatag para sa kanya.

"It's not the injuries that made it hard for her, it's the trauma that makes her suffer every night...."

Rainbows

2011-03-11T05:06:00.000+08:00

Oo na ako na in love ulit haha!

Wala ako masabi.. Hindi kasi ako sanay hahaha!

Basta kami na....

It's Like...

2011-02-07T00:33:00.003+08:00

Hindi ko alam pero parang... nag sawa na ako sa mundo ng world wide web... lalong lalo na sa mga madalas kong puntahan na websites, bihira ko na nga lng sila puntahan ngayon eh. ewan ko ba parang nakaka-sawa na ung mga nangyayari... may nag aaway sa mga social network websites, walang katapusang pa-like ng mga "page" nila at kung ano ano pa....

Minsan kasi parang gladiator arena ang mga websites tulad ng Facebook.com humaharap minsan ung iba na may maskara, minsan naman sadyang matapang lang ung iba na ipag sigawan ang mga nasa isip nila ng walang maskara.

Pero siguro nga pagod na ako makakita ng mga kaibigan kong nag babatuhan ng putik sa internet kaya ako nag kaka-ganito...

Hay makapag drawing na nga ulit...

Now what?

2011-01-03T16:58:00.003+08:00

Year 2011 na so ano meron?....

Ano na? hahaha business as usual? dapat lng para may pera, kasi ako ayaw ko na umasa sa mga magulang ko. oo proud ako sa mga bagay na binili ko sa sariling pera ko kahit gaano pa kaliit ung bagay na yun.

Pero hopefully ma-put up ko na ung business ko ngayon 2011 ang tagal na kasing nasa planning stage hahaha!

2011 may love life nga ba? hahaha!

Unknown eh...

Ano gagawin niyo kung malaman mo ito sa taong mahal mo?

"Iniisip ko din kasi kung sasagutin ko siya then makikipag break din ako, it will bring a lot of pain. so i guess wag na lang..."

Chinika yan ng tinuturing niyang ate... pupunta kasi siya sa japan....

So.... ewan....

White all over

2010-12-28T00:10:00.002+08:00

Anu ba ginawa ko buong december? party dito party doon? hahaha! normal na ata un lalo na sa buwan ng december kung saan kabi-kabila ang party.

Malapit na matapos ang taon in 3days goodbye 2010 na...

May napala ba ako ngayon taon? meron din naman ata... hahaha!

Ano ba aabangan ko next year? more projects? haha! pero cguro nga "more projects" hehe!

Kasama ko na cguro sa iiwan ang mga mali ko ngayong taon sa pag palit ng taon(para mga bagong kasalanan ulit haha! joke)

-dex singing off

Private Server or not?

2010-11-25T15:59:00.003+08:00

I don't know what's with Level-Up games Philippines in the past weeks... It's just seems that there just flooding their Ragnarok players with the "Convert and Receive" event! a.k.a CnR.

CnR is where you will top-up worth 500php on the day of event then convert it to either Rok points(currency to use at item mall) or have your account on Premium, then you will receive the corresponding item for that event day..

So whats bad about it?

It seems that Ragnarok is just about money!!

Their giving what the players want almost every other day! making the game imbalance in my opinion. The sense of hunting/farming of items is long way gone!

I'm not really against the CnR promo but I hope they consider the items what will they release at the promo. It's just every powerful equipment is on the list of CnR.. Variant,Agent Skin,KvM Armors, LBH Set... What's next? Naght Sieger swords!?

So what will happen now at pRO? will it follow the same footsteps of those other private server that became unbalance because of their donate system?

I HOPE IT WON'T!

Ever-changing battle field

2010-11-18T04:59:00.003+08:00

It's been more than a week since I've started my studies to improve what skills I have and ended just yesterday.

I did enjoy my week full of studies with different mentors.

Summer is nearing fast... I just hope I can pull this everything off.. And oh yeah there's still the Christmas season!

I guess this is what my sensei told me when I was young... "constant challenge, an ever-changing battle field"

LU LIVE! 2010

2010-11-04T23:47:00.003+08:00

It's just two days before the much anticipated event for LU Gamers like me, LU LIVE! 2010

Well what should we expect this year? I guess nothing fancy especially the "early bird" promo for Ragnarok gamers *cough*

But I guess everyone is expecting a lot of cosplayers will be cosplaying the new 3rd jobs from Ragnarok online, well who doesn't? hahaha!

Anyway visit our guild booth this year Revamped_Blasphemy! we will be selling pins,keychain,t-shirt and Head gears from Ragnarok online so be sure to come!

Infinite Glider

2010-10-12T03:51:00.003+08:00

Kotaenai ano hi no kokage
Mujou wo satotta yo, sukoshi
Saegiru koe

Tsumekonda nimotsu no sukima
KUSHAKUSHA ni natteta kokoro
Hirogete yomikaesu

Modoranai ano hi no kokage
Jibun ga wakatta yo, sukoshi
Saegiru koe

Tsumekonda nimotsu no sukima
KUSHAKUSHA ni natteta yume mo
Hirogete yomikaesu

Surai yo surai mou genjitsu to risou no sakaime de bokura no
Yume, kibou, sono tagui kudaketa maboroshi
Itai yo itai mou genjitsu wo uketometa ano hi no bokura no
Kokoro no katasumi Ukan da omokage

Togisunda kankaku
Kimi wo motto boku wo motto kanjite bokura wa tobu
Hirogeta ryouyoku
Kaze wo motto kibou motto
Wazuka ni habataku GLIDER

Mugen?
Yurai da

Yuugen
Tsumari wa

Surai yo surai mou genjitsu to risou no sakaime de bokura no
Yume, kibou, sono tagui kudaketa maboroshi
Itai yo itai mou genjitsu wo uketometa ano hi no bokura no
Kokoro no katasumi Ukan da omokage

Togisunda kankaku
Kimi wo motto boku wo motto kanjite bokura wa tobu
Hirogeta ryouyoku
Kaze wo motto kibou motto
Wazuka ni habataku GLIDER

Mugen?
Yurai da

Yuugen
Tsumari wa

Mugen
Yuugen
Mugen

(lyrics of Mugen Glider by ASIAN KUNG-FU GENERATION)

Deep inside me..

My rival is calling me again....

Once again we shall face head on!

Rolling Days

2010-10-04T23:34:00.005+08:00

Sorry I want to write in Tagalog today XD

Kanina habang online ako sa YM ginawa kong "Waiter pabalot, pwede bang mabalot sa pag-ibig? pwede pa take-out?" ang status ko tapos bigla na lang nag IM si kuya marvin sakin "lol @ status" ang reply ko "kanta yan hahaha" reply ba naman ni kuya marvin "ayyy" na tawa na lang ako hahahaha!

Pero lovelife? saka na lang cguro, masaya naman ang buhay kahit walang lovelife dahil na buhay naman tayo sa simula nung wala yan. Oo masarap pag may minamahal at may nag mamahal sayo pero sabi nga sa quotes "Fall inlove when you are ready not when you are feeling lonely" tama naman diba ^^

Nanjan naman ang mga kapatid kong mga babae sila na lang muna aalagaan ko hahahaha! pero sa totoo lang masaya mag karoon ng mga kapatid babae, kahit hindi ko sila totoong mga kapatid pero ang turingan namin ay bilang totoong mag kapatid(kahit puro sila pa libre kay kuya, ok lang love ko naman mga sis ko hehe) ^^

Kahapon nga pala nag punta ako sa day 2 ng Cosmania X sa SMX nag enjoy ako sa event ang tagal na din kasi nung huli kong pinuntahan na anime/game convention dahil LU Live 0'9 pa ung huli hahahaha!

Influence

2010-09-19T05:04:00.005+08:00

"influence" vs "inspiration," these two terms are interchangeable in this meme. If you are inspired by something, you are thereby influenced by it

- fox-orian

Disclaimer: I do not own any of the pictures here.

Credit goes to Fox-Orian for the idea of making the Influence Map.

So here goes me XD

Masashi Kishimoto - The mangaka of the famous manga series Naruto. As the manga Naruto continues it gradually change my point of view how to create a shonen manga.

Tetsuya Nomura - Hired by Square(now as Square Enix) as a debugger for the game Final Fantasy IV until his major breakthrough for the game Final Fantasy VII as Square asked him to be the character designer for Final Fantasy VII to replace Yoshitaka Amano. It was a critical and commercial success. He also directed the CGI animated film Final Fantasy VII Advent Children which was released on 2005. He's the main reason why I love RPG games XD

Shinonome Taro - The mangaka for the manga adaptation of the dating simulation game KimiKiss for PS2 entitled KimiKiss Various Heroines. His unique art style of creating female characters caught my attention.

Summer Wars - From the director of The Girl Who Leapt Through Time, Mamoru Hosoda. This film inspired me in many ways. Unique color style and animation wise.

Ken Akamatsu - The famous mangaka behind A.I. Love You,Love Hina and Mahou Sensei Negima! I was eleven years old when his works was my first introduction to the Harem genre. He inspired me a lot when creating a harem genre.

Noizi Ito - The character designer and artist for the Shakugan no Shana and The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya and her latest work Bee-be-beat it! her excellent art style specially when it comes to "MOE" style characters influenced me a lot.

Code Geass - From CLAMP the anime that made me think deeper when it comes to writing a plot and the distinct art style when it comes to male hair styles.

Macross - A long-running series of science fiction mecha anime, created by Shōji Kawamori of Studio Nue in 1982. It consists of three TV series, four movies, six OVAs. Though this Isn't my first anime but this was the first anime that showed me how great an anime can be, from the mecha design, intriguing love story and the introduction of the first anime idol Lynn Minmay. Up until now I'm still excited to see what will the be the next macross series can show to me XD

Type-Moon - A prominent Japanese game company that inspired me in many ways, best known for their visual novels, co-founded by author Kinoko Nasu and illustrator Takashi Takeuchi. In December 2002, Type-Moon released their first fighting game, Melty Blood, a PC-based doujin game based on the Tsukihime universe it was also my first introduction to their works and introduced me to the doujin world. Later Type-Moon soon transitioned from a dojin soft organization to a commercial organization, and in January 2004, released their first commercial release, a PC-based eroge visual novel game, Fate/stay night. Because of Fate/stay night I was hooked to the culture of VN style art form!

My original post at DA can be found HERE and Fox-Orian's Influence Map template can be found HERE

Doujin?

2010-09-05T14:51:00.004+08:00

It's been one week since I've started creating a doujin game about Ragnarok Online. The game typical classic RPG game and the software that Ive'd been using is called RPG Maker VX. at the first day I was like "Okay first I'll create the maps" then after searching on the internet for some guides and seeing some impressive game demos that has been created thru RPG Maker VX it was like "Okay I want that feature in my game and that too..." I was stuck testing some other's game scripts hahaha!! I was like a little boy that like to have every toy he sees hahaha!!

I think as a beginner I should avoid that attitude XD

Here is a screenshot of the center of Prontera

Anyway I have to return to programming my game now hahaha!

Wishlist

2010-08-13T23:06:00.022+08:00

I just want to have a Wishlist(frustrations that I can't have yet XD) here in no particular order

First off, the Figma 1/8 scale of Sheryl Nome from the anime Macross Frontier. I really love that character from the Frontier series. Too bad it's about 76.46 USD(yikees!)

Here is the character art book of Saber from Fate/stay Night series by Type-moon. The art book is 63 pages long and retails for 1,800 yen. It's an excellent art book with tons of art work depicting Saber in various costumes(drools).

And above is the box of the sequel's most popular real time strategy game from Blizzard, StarCraft2. As a kid who grew in the age of computers there's no doubt you don't know StarCraft specially if you are already a gamer in mid 90's. I really! really! want to play it thru Battle.Net, though the original cost 3,500php!(eek!)

Next here is the album cover of Magic Disk, the latest album from ASIAN KUNG-FU GENERATION(Ajikan for short) I love this band since I've heard their music way back in 2004 in the opening music of Naruto. This album contains the song Solanin which is also the main theme of the movie(with the same title) Solanin.

Next up is my biggest frustration as a MTG player! The lightning Bolt Card! when I was introduced to the card game two years ago I was immediately hooked with the Red Deck, then there was this legendary red card called Lightning Bolt. It was said that card was the bread and butter of every Red Deck. Though I know where to buy the card it cost 350php each and my deck needs four of it!(350 x 4 = 1400!) back then when I was still a player I don't have the luxury to spend 1400php for my hobby! so my deck ended incomplete till I decided to stop playing XD

You know what I've realize after writing this blog? It's hard to have a hobby when you don't have a income! XD

Kill the habit

2010-08-05T04:11:00.003+08:00

Since I came to work under my uncle's wing my life became so lively? or should I say "still awake at graveyard hours".

I know it's not really good for my body, some people are already telling me I've become more thinner?

For the past days I always told myself I'll be sleeping "earlier" not "early" but I always end up sleeping "early".

Maybe I should kill some of my habits in the midnight, most of my time at midnight I'll just usually read a manga from mangafox telling myself "I'll just read to make myself sleepy" yet in the end I couldn't make myself go to bed because of the manga I've been reading.

And yet here I'am writing a blog, and now it's "early" again damn! XD

Bored or what?!

2010-08-02T03:38:00.003+08:00

Dunno whats happening to me for the past days but i'm kinda bored from what I've been doing... maybe because its always repetitive? come to think of it, we usually eat everyday but we don't get bored of it. Why? because of the varieties of the meals? the different people we had together while having our meals? why is that?! well if that is really the answer... maybe i should also try that in my daily routine, but how?

Work is work! you can't tell to your boss that "hey boss I want to work at the beach front because i'm bored at our work place" after saying that, the next thing you'll know is you're saying goodbye to your job.

Even at playing at any type of games, I am bored...

I'm not frustrated... I'm just bored... Am I waiting something exciting to happen like Haruhi Suzumiya?

Metro Comic Con School Tour CSB Edition

2010-07-29T14:37:00.006+08:00

Yesterday was the Metro comic con school tour at the De La Salle-College of Saint Benilde.

I wasn't supposed to be there because I have an errand to do and I'm not a student of that school but due to the "convincing"(LOL) of my friend/guildmate erin whom a student at Saint Benilde.(and also my interest in the field of arts) I end up going there.

I came at Vito Cruz LRT Station at 12:40pm then

I meet up with erin, actually it's my first time to enter their school. It was like "Hello Saint Benilde". Anyway enough with the campus tour lol. The MCC was held at the Green Room at the 10th floor, we came there just in time, then we bump one of erin's friend Reeza whom also going to the MCC so we tag along. when I was up to sign for the entrance form it seems i'm the ONLY(because i'm the only one who signed without the student I.D.) outsider came to the said comic seminar! XD

MCC started with some guess artist like Manix Abrera,Lyndon Gregorio,Danny Acuna(I love how sir Danny joke and tell some stories XD) and some more prominent artist here and abroad(sorry I forgot the other artists =__=) sharing how they started in the comic book industry. They also have a lecture on how create a good portfolio headed by sir Heubert Khan Michael, I personally like that lecture XD

Lastly the portfolio review!(gulp) me and erin had our portfolio reviewed by sir Ernest Hernandez, erin's portfolio was good and she was said that her coloring style was good despite how she hates her coloring XD next was my porfolio, I was shocked how sir Ernest told me how'd he like my rush C.C. fan art seriously!? I was expecting more lecture from him but he said I just need a little bit more balancing the hand structure. it was like "really?? thats all I need to improve? XD"

After our portfolio got reviewed we decided to left because erin still have a class and I was still sleepy XD

Lastly here's a photo of me,erin and reeza with sir Manix Abrera(creator of KikoMachine) XD

P.S. thanks erin for the gate pass XD

Till next time!

2010-07-23T16:52:00.006+08:00

You know who you are...

Well... Sorry! for what I've done to you and it turn out that I'm not really the person you called "Master dex" sorry... I'm not the perfect guy who can save you always...

I just want to say this before I leave in your sight because I won't be bothering you for the next few months or maybe years I guess? XD I just need time... A time to let this feeling for you... fade...

Well thats it, bidding a goodbye... Till next time friend. ^^

First Love

2010-07-08T04:00:00.006+08:00

First love... I can't remember when I first learn the meaning of those words but what is really its meaning? The first girl whom you loved or the things that we really loved to do?

Manga art is my real first love but it seem fate don't want me to be with my first love...

When was the last time I've grabbed a pencil and drew?

Here I am working under my uncle's business... Alone foolishly trying to become an adult... Working to help my family financially...

It's so hard not able to do the things you really love... It's like the feeling of being choked... Dying silently...

There are a lot of things I want to end but I can't... Because they need me... It's always me...

Why I am thinking about this again?... Sometimes I want to become selfish... but I guess I've already done that... Leaving our guild at Valhalla for a while... I know I shouldn't have done that because I'm the guild master but I'm also a human.. Getting burned out... I have the right to file a leave...

Just like kuya marvin said to me "we just have to be responsible" yeah... But how about for ourselves? when we'll be responsible for ourselves?

Sometimes there are days I want to blame my parents why my life turned out like this...

I've been always fighting against jealousy from my friends since I've stopped studying... Seeing them reaching where they want to go, living the "normal life" of a student.

I'm tired of hearing "you're still young, you can still do a lot of things" I'm already 21yrs old Dammit! when will I have a time for my personal goals? when I'am at 30yrs old? goodness!

It's been two months since me and my sensei argued about my decision for not going to japan... choosing my other responsibility...

Sensei... where are you?...

I just wan't to draw again...

Please...

私はまだあなたを愛して

2010-06-27T03:46:00.005+08:00

Yeah... You the one and only girl I called "Fiancé"

I still love you...

After our misunderstanding, the past months we both become strangers to one another...

But after what happen to the guild and myself at the world of Valhalla, I felt it's about time to face this... no... you...

I won't return to the past because the old me is stupid to hurt you.

Just thinking about calling you "Fiancé" it makes me miss you more...

Seeing you almost everyday online... always double clicking your yahoo messenger I.D. but afraid to start typing...

But you know... I'm glad we're starting to talk again a bit at Plurk...

Well... what can I do?

I still love you Fiancé ^^

There it is...

2010-06-21T21:06:00.006+08:00

Yesterday was the championship for valhalla server...

Our guild was participating, our first match would be up against New Directions guild...

We are all hopeful that we could win it.. But it didn't turn that way... I messed up in the first round of our match against New Directions guild... We were already leading at that round, our team where already shouting "ayan na bagsak na ung champion nila" but there goes me... A messed up game....

Round two... I could say it was a hard fought match... But New Directions still prevailed...

After the match our team goes to their own houses... but for me I stayed at SM southmall, I couldn't contain my emotions... I rush to the bathroom staying there for forty minutes... crying...

I know we should be proud what we have achieved this RPC season, but I'm still bitter at my performance yesterday... I just thought that after six years it's about time that Revamped guild would be crowned as champion...

Oh well.... I have to wait another year *Sigh*

Road to skydome...

2010-06-15T16:15:00.004+08:00

It's just five days before my very first big fight in my whole Ragnarok online career.... It takes six years before I reached this level.... Road to skydome huh?...

I want to reach it...

Kaeru basho de aru you ni

2010-06-08T19:23:00.005+08:00

I just felt writing in the air today...

I am frustrated in what is happening in my life...

Up until now, my sensei still mad at me since I've chosen that path... when will be the time he'll forgive me...

Frustrated that my family is arguing about my grandmother's money... They should be worrying about her health for god's sake... what a disgrace...

Frustrated how I'm easily get distracted...

Frustrated that what ever I do, I won't be that old me two years ago... the leader... the sub guild master... I pity myself... I was a better leader back then.... It's so frustrating...

Frustrated about myself.... Why can't I live up to their expectations...

Frustrated that sometimes I just want to lock myself in this room where I am right now... away from all these noise...

Frustrated that.... I still love her.... I know that she won't ever forgive me.... Suppressing this feeling... It sucks....

It's so frustrating how my life turned like this....

"kaeru basho de aru you ni"

Simula na....

2010-06-01T18:01:00.001+08:00

June na at simula na nang matinding pag iipon... hehe....

Confused...

2010-05-19T04:27:00.002+08:00

I don't know why... but I'm deeply confused about myself... I wonder how I'm going to celebrate my upcoming birthday this June...

And the mere fact that I'm singing again "Almost in love" by Chemistry makes me more confused... Why?... Who's the girl I'm singing it for?....

Tears in the middle of war

2010-05-05T23:08:00.005+08:00

Here I am facing the giants of pRO agit lords tournament....

I've already prepared myself from the pain that this war might bring.... yet sometimes we really don't know what will came upon us...

Last Monday I've received a call from my mother, she was crying... then she told me that our grandmother fell from that stairs of their house...

I didn't knew what to do.... I was torn to make a decision to leave the guild before the woe start or to be at the side of my grandmother...

Though I am the guild master, I think I also have the responsibility to be a grandchild for my grandmother...

It's hard to make a decision like that specially at the time of agit lords....

I have decided to be a grandchild for that day...

As I came at the house of my grandmother, I didn't knew what will I saw...

I greeted my grandmother and said "lola nandito na ako... ok lang kayo?" my grandmother replied...

"Mmm..."

"......"

Then my uncle suddenly talk.... "Hindi na makakilala.."

I was not emotionally prepared when I saw my grandmother in her condition... she suddenly became bedridden... the grandmother I known since childhood was a strong one...

I didn't knew It but I was already crying... I told myself "punyeta ano nangyari kay lola..."

I immediately called Christopher one of our nurse in the guild and told him what happen... he told me that my grandmother must be bought to the hospital ASAP.

I told my aunt that we must bring our grandmother to the hospital but it seems that they don't care that much...

My grandmother told them not to bring her to the hospital...

My aunt said "baka may kung ano pa mangyari sa lola niyo sa hospital"

I told myself "putang ina! mas walang mangyayari kay lola pag hindi dinala sa hospital.."

Then my uncle said "bukas dadalhin natin lola niyo sa hospital"

That night... All I did was crying...

I was mad at myself.. I can't do anything..

Tuesday came... I wake up early morning to return at my work place, I told my uncle that my mom will come here and they'll bring grandma to the hospital...

I've left without saying goodbye to my grandmother...

As the night came... I was worried that my mother haven't messaged me that they've already bring grandma to the hospital...

As Wednesday morning came my mother messaged me that they're bringing grandma to the hospital...

I was a bit disappointed... why did it take so long to bring grandma at the hospital...

12pm my mother messaged me that our grandmother is now at the hospital.

".........."

2pm my mother messaged me again, she told me that our grandma is fine and going home that day she just need to take her daily med, though her bones at the hips have cracked the doctor said it will heal trough time.

I was relieved...

4pm a friend of mine was online at yahoo messenger.

I instant message him and asked him how is he in the past few days...

he replied "wala malapit nako ma operahan kaya hinay hinay lang sa pag computer"

I was shocked...

"meh varicocele ako, ipapatanggal ko yung varicocele ko"

"hindi naman siya life threatening pero dapat lang tlga siya gawin"

He told me not to tell his condition at our other friends... I know it's not that life threatening. but I'm still worried...

Later that night

I was looking at my plurk timeline when "she" posted "after two years may crush na ulit ako"

I told myself "buti ka pa nakapag move on na... ako kelan kaya...." a tear fell from my eyes...

Because I'm still mad at myself for hurting her...

I shouldn't be thinking of these at this time of agit lords.... but I can't control my emotions....

Deep breath

2010-04-22T12:57:00.002+08:00

Kagabi ang unang siege namin para sa Agit Lord may mga bagay na hindi ako inaasahan na nang yari... unang-una dalawang guild laban sa tatlong guilds... pangalawa kaya pala namin sila sa clash kahit lamang sila sa dami...

Na tapos ang siege at naka isang agit lang kami, ang lalim nang hinga ko... hindi ko makontrol... hindi nga agad pumasok sa isip ko ung mga nangyari matapos ung siege.

Kahit hindi nakuha ng Finest guild ang honor agit at na deny ung main agit na kinuha namin may mga magandang resulta parin para sa akin.

Pero naramdaman ko nanaman ulit ung dati kong nararamdaman nuon tuwing Agit Lord season... Ung excitement...

So be it!

2010-04-14T10:19:00.008+08:00

Malapit na mag simula ang scoring ng Agit Lords at kami ang pangbato ng alliance namin sa phase two...

Eto na din ang possibleng huling laban ko... At eto na din ang magiging pinakamahirap sa buong RO career ko...

Nakataya na dito ang buong sarili ko... Nakataya na dito kung may silbi ba talaga akong bilang guild master ng guild... Nakataya na din dito ang future career ko sa RO... Nakataya na din dito ung pride ko sa pagiging LK, kung kaya parin ba makipagsabayan ng mga LK sa mga champs kapag Woe gaya nuong unang panahon sa RO... Nakataya na din dito ang pera ng guild... Nakataya na din dito ung pagiging member ko ng Revamped nuon dahil sigurado ako Bitzbox ang makakalaban namin... Ang guild na hindi namin matalo-talo nuon sa fenrir.... Pag kakataon ko na ito para ipaghiganti ung past efforts namin nuon... Nakataya na din dito ang efforts ng ibang guilds na kasama sa alliance... Nakataya na din dito ang effort ng buong guild... Nakataya na din dito ang Pangalan ko... At higit sa lahat nakataya na dito ang pangalan ng guild.

I Hope...

2010-04-12T15:24:00.002+08:00

I'm returning home to valhalla... I just hope I'm not yet to late to fix myself as a guildmaster... I know I've have so many to come up with my members... It's just some of my IRL problems have pushed me to leave them back then... But I guess a have to start forgiving myself first before anything else...

I hope... I'm not yet late...

Summer Madness!

2010-04-05T23:26:00.010+08:00

Movie title: Summer Wars

Genre: Action,Comedy

From the director of The Girl Who Leapt Through Time, Hosoda Mamoru.

The story is about Kenji, a high school student who works part time maintaining a virtual online world called Oz. Oz is just like your favorite MMORPG but instead of just games, services like banking,paying bills and other real life services are connected to Oz and can be used just by e-mail or cellphone. On the other hand Kenji has a crush on her sempai Natsuki whom invites him to work part time in the countryside over the summer. The job, Kenji finds, is to act like Natsuki's fiancé to please her Grandma!

As the story goes an A.I. virus called "Love Machine" starts unleashing hell on Oz and using the online infrastructure to throw the real world into utter chaos!

When watching this film one might feel like they are viewing a moving picture book, a family photo album turned back a few decades. The vibe is really Showa Era Japan, the good old days.

I won't say anything more about this movie because I don't want to spoil everyone.

The animation is good from the virtual world of Oz to the real world. Voice acting is also good and even the BGM the soft sound of summer!

Here are some screenshots from the movie.

Overall I'll rate it a 9.4/10

Leaving the impossible

2010-03-08T23:54:00.003+08:00

Six years of playing pRO?

What can I say? NONE!! It's just sometimes I want to leave the whole community yet it's just impossible...

First and foremost the reason sometimes I want to leave the online gaming community FOR GOOD is because I just got tired... second is the pressure of being the guild master... it's just that some of my personal issues is being tied up because of too much playing... and third some financial issues... well you can't go head on other guilds without spending for ROK points...

And lastly... I'm just afraid that the girl I really love might stop playing because of me...

Yet I can't leave... The guild that started with only six members now grew to 20+ members. It became a family...

A guild that I can't leave because of that "family".

Inconsiderate fool

2010-03-04T00:27:00.003+08:00

I don't know why... but it seems I'm the most inconsiderate fool... I've hurt her feelings... but I won't let this end like this... even if we'll go back to the beginning and even it takes a long time....

I've learned a important lesson from what I've done.... I won't do this ever again!

Gomenasai fiance....

New year, New challenges

2010-01-01T04:17:00.003+08:00

I've been busy with so many things this past December 0'9 that even this my blog I've forgot to update XD

A lot of things happened to our guild... I didn't think that we overcome all of those challenges despite how big the problem is...

I'm proud of all the achievement of my guild members in-game or in real life.

Anyway... there is this girl that made my December warm... I just didn't expect her to come... but still I'm happy for us, Hoping that year 2010 will be good for us ^^

Year 2010 here I come!!

A Letter for you...

2009-12-01T19:08:00.005+08:00

Dear you...

Every time i see you there is a part of me that want to give you a warm hug.

Every time you tell me that you are crying i want to come where you are and wipe your tears.

Every time i see you there is a part of me that want to see you always smile.

Every time you tell me that your memories with him make you sad i want to try and replace those sad memories with happy memories.

Every time i see you there is a part of me that want to tell "I love you".

But i know it's not the right time to tell you this, that's why I'll keep this letter for a while and wait for the right time...

To be a good friend

2009-11-19T18:23:00.003+08:00

Hindi ko alam kung bakit pero na huhulog na ang loob ko dun sa isang kaibigan ko na may boyfriend na....

Nag simula ito sa isang text message na nag lalaman ng isang problema niya, ewan ko ba at ang hilig ko kasi mag bigay ng mga payo sa mga kabigan ko kaya ayun dun nag simula ang kwentuhan...

Medyo na padalas ng "konti" ang pag kikita namin samantalang dati eh halos hindi kami mag kita sa personal at natutuwa naman ako na nag kikita kami...

Malapit na mag isang buwan itong nararamdaman ko para sa kanya.... At kailangan na agad ito mawala.... Dahil wala naman patutunguhan itong nararamdaman ko para sa kanya ayoko din naman sabihin itong nararamdaman ko para sa kanya dahil ayoko mag iba ang tingin niya sa akin...

Itatago ko na lang itong nararamdaman ko para sa kanya....

Dahil isa akong mabuting kaibigan ^^

LU Live 0'9 United We Play

2009-11-12T16:48:00.016+08:00

Thousands of Pinoy Gamers Unite at Level Up! LIVE 2009

LU Live 0'9 was held on Nov.7-8 at world trade center were different tournaments of online games are held, like Ragnarok,RF,Rohan,FlyFF,Freestyle,Crazy Cart,Grand Chase,Perfect world and the highly-anticipated FPS online KOS: Secret Operations

[The tournament grounds]

And of course our guild Revamped_Blasphemy was part of the "LU City" where guilds setup different in-game themed booth from their respective games.

[our booth in the making]

Early Nov.6 we were already at WTC for the Ingress of the LU Live

[my ID as an exhibitor]

[our humble booth]

I was able to meet in-person Blade Fury` the guild master of KB(one of my ally guilds in valhalla) and some other notable persons in valhalla and thanks to Athalia for buying one of our T-shirts hohoho!

[Valhalla freedom board by Prism Infinity guild]

[The guild masters of valhalla with GM Anael]

And of course our guild... the Revamped_Blasphemy at LU Live 0'9

[Revamped Blasphemy]

Nov.5 was officially our guild anniversary but since LU Live 0'9 is just around the corner I decided we celebrate our guild anniversary at LU Live 0'9. This is the first time I met some of my members "personally"

[RB's 99ners]

[RB's Team Bagets]

[The new members]

Our LU Live 0'9 ended with a little celebration at the Mall of Asia.

And thanks to our guild booth neighbor Red Elite™(also valhalla server) GM Nimrod Soulfist and Blushing Virgin for the tekken 3 match(Revamped vs. Finest) hahaha!

Also I would like to thank Erin Bare for helping us managing our booth, My guild members for the support and specially Nix and Erin for the hard work for our guild booth.

See you next year!

歌姫

2009-11-08T07:32:00.000+08:00

私が本当に昨日起きたのか分からない...私が見て、彼女が私は彼女の'フグ'しかし、私はことのないようにしたい場合、この感情の話を聞いた...そして彼女のために適切ではないの...彼女は私の親友の...彼女の心はまだ...歌姫彼の恋人からの崩壊からは、私に落ちることになって負傷さに'は抱擁』を与えてはならない愛....

Perfect Love?

2009-11-05T20:17:00.008+08:00

This past weeks I've seen many heartache from my friends....

I'm just wondering if there's really a perfect love.....

Is it right to lie for a love?

There is this friend(but I treat her as my little sister) of mine had a problem about her relationship, her relationship is legal with their parents yet she was having a hard time to spent time with his boyfriend because of their parents is a bit strict...

She was asking me if its okay to lie from her parents about his boyfriend visiting her at their home...

Because his boyfriend said that he was just going to visit a friend yet he visit her, she told me that both their parents will be mad at them if their parents knows the truth...

Well... we can't really say its okay to lie for love yet sometimes its better to lie....

Frankly I told my little sister about what they've done is not right...

But I told her it's better not to tell the truth on their parents... yet I remind her not to do it again...

Is it right to expect for love?

One of my guild member is still confuse... will she expect something from his crush? is it really right to expect something in return? and yet she swear to her self that she won't be in a relationship until she gets 21years old...

Yet she even told me that sometimes she couldn't control her self to jump in a relationship...

We can't really tell what would really happen.... but I told my guild member she must not except anything in return... that's the hard truth about loving someone whom might not really love you...

Is there really a right time for breaking up?

Just last week my good friend told me that his boyfriend broke up with her... Her relationship was a bit complicated though she really love his boyfriend...

What she told me that his boyfriend is a bit childish... they always had a quarrel upon simple things... well from my opinion it's really normal to have a quarrel sometimes on a relationship...

But both of them had given up their relationship... Even how she really loved his boyfriend it ended just a few days before her birthday...

I'm just a bit disappointed... they didn't fight for their love...

Oh well... we can't force ourselves on something... Hopefully they've learned from what happen...

Is there's really a perfect love?

Are kara boku tachi wa
Nanika wo shinjite koreta ka naa...
Yozora no mukou niwa
Ashita ga mou matte iru

ボンズ

2009-10-17T02:35:00.004+08:00

Some say a bond of a teacher and student is unmeasurable...

anyway...

It was July 7, 2001 when I met my master/sensei... I was just only 12years old back then when I met him...

AXN Anime Fest July 7, 2001 at SM Megamall, I was with my mother and my oldest brother. That was my first time to go on a Anime convention and my first time to saw a cosplayer, It's like "WOOW!" when I saw them hahaha!

Then one of the marshals announced that they still need one more contestant for the "On the spot drawing contest" suddenly my mom told me to try and join the contest... I just nodded...

I didn't knew what i'm doing back then... When I saw the works of the other contestants I knew that there's no chance for me yet still... I tried... I drew a chibi version of Cloud Strife the main character of Final Fantasy 7...

Yet i lose the competition...

Then it was autograph signing of Mahiro Maeda. Japan's premier illustrator and director of the TV hit Blue Submarine No. 6 as one of the contestants we were prioritized for the autograph signing! Lucky! hahahaha!

After the signing then suddenly a man came to me and said "Gusto mo ba gumaling?" I was back then "Huh?! sino ka ba?"

I just ignored him back then like my mother usually told me "don't talk to strangers" hahahaha!

As the AXN Anime Fest ended I didn't saw him again...

A year passed it was C3 convention the first Philippine comic book and Animé Convention came... of course me and my oldest brother came to the event... that was my first time I saw Lyndon
Gregorio personally who created the hit comic Beerkada.

And of course there was "On the spot drawing contest" yet i didn't join... I said to myself back then "Sasali nanaman ba ako para matalo?...." I was afraid to lose...

Then before C3 ended I saw him again... The man who said to me "Gusto mo ba gumaling?" then he talk to me again, and before he finished talking i suddenly said to him "Master! gusto ko gumaling!!" then he just said to me "tawagin mo na lng akong sensei"

It was the start of a Bond....

Sensei teach me a lot of things, to simple sketching up to different walks of life...

Sensei just became an inspiration to me...

I remembered back then i asked my sensei why did he choose me to be his student yet i loss at the competition, he just ignored my question.

After two years under his guidance... It was time for my sensei to return to japan... I was sad i didn't knew what to do... but sensei said "Wag ka malungkot.... Ipangako mo sakin na mag iimprove ka parin kahit wala ako....." I was crying when i said to him "Sensei! oo! gagawin ko yan!" then the next day sensei left for his flight to japan...

Years passed it's just me alone.... improving my drawing skills...

More years have passed then suddenly I got a phone call from sensei and he said to me if i want to be an assistant artist i didn't hesitate i said to my self "Eto na! Oras na para patunayan ko kay sensei ung ilang taon ng pag hahanda ko"

One of his colleagues gave me an exam.... A week passed, sensei called to tell me I've passed the exam, I cried when he told me i passed the exam and I'll become his assistant artist i still remember what he told me at the phone "Ikaw parin talaga ung studyante ko.... iyakin ka parin hahaha!"

Up until now sensei still won't answer my question why did he choose me to be his student...

Still i'm glad to have a sensei like him ^^

私はあなたの先生は失敗しません！

Films

2009-10-13T22:50:00.002+08:00

Just sharing this short film entitled "Signs" Its about communication, Created by Publicis Mojo and directed by Patrick Hughes.

Click here for the video

And here also another good short film entitled "STRUCK" a short film presented at the Hayden Films Festival by TXL FILMS and 625 Productions

Click here for the video

Enjoy!

Almost in love...

2009-10-08T17:38:00.030+08:00

I shouldn't been writing this today because i have a lot of things to do... yet... anyway....

I had a crush on a girl back then but i was only a crush... But this is me and the first girl that I've loved truly.....

"Hoho ni fure sou na mune no takanari
Mitsumeru tabi ni koi ga chikaduku
Yuki ga mai sou na sora no shita
Deaeta no wa itazura ja naku
I'm just being in love hajimari sou sa
just in love? Sukoshizutsu... sukoshizutsu..."

It was late December 2006 when i joined otakuzine forums... It was then i met her online she was one of the moderators of the forum... at first i thought she was strict because she's a moderator yet i find her as a kind person... then came Ozine fest 2008 an anime convention held at SM Megamall, that was my first time to meet her personally...

As an otaku I've always loved to go in those kind of events...

As being a moderator of ozine forums she was assigned to the ozine forumer's booth as i approached the booth i was immediately greeted by her and i still remember clearly what she first said to me...

"Raiza!" *handshake*

Me:...... *handshake*

I was talking to my self back then saying "......" i don't know but... it's like an instant crush on her hahaha!

Some forumers back then was already joking and calling her "Dyosa"

As the Ozine fest 2008 goes on I've also met some other forumers.

"Tokimeki wa kimi no tonari de
Kurikaeshi afurete yuku
Ai no yokan ni tsutsumarete
Arigachi na hitokoto sae mo
Hi wo tomosu yo
maybe in love with you"

At Mangaholix 2008 I've had a chance to see her again yet I'm not that close to her that's why we only exchange some few words

Months passed after those events the usual talk at the forums with her became "Kulitan" she even gave her ozine account to me to moderate the forums while she's gone because i was always online back then

If i remembered it correctly it was late June 2008 when the dorm system at ozine forums was implemented, I became the Dorm 1 moderator thanks to her(because she was the little baby girl of the ozine team) i still remember when we are chatting at YM how i became a moderator she said "sabi ko kay kuya DJ gawin kang Mod kasi masipag ka naman :)) "

At dorm 1 we also became dorm mates and became a bit more closer to each other...

Anicon 2008 again i was able to see her and i was a bit more comfortable talking with her "personally" this is also the time i got used calling her "Dyosa" hehehe...

It was December when we really got close.....

Ozine forumers Christmas gathering at Mega Mall December 27 of course she came... all of us had a good time back then.

"Wazato ijiwaru wo shite mita keredo
Donna serifu mo
amaku tokeru yo
kiss ni ato dore kurai darou?
Konya kimi wo kaeshi taku wa nai
I'm just being in love dakishimetakute
just in love
Itsumademo...itsumademo..."

Then after the Christmas gathering i didn't knew we were texting the whole week... she was telling that her crush at ozine had already a girlfriend i was comforting her back then. then i just suddenly joked her and texted "ako na lang mag aaply sa puso mo XD" then she replied "hahaha! mag aaply ka? XD" i don't know why but there's a little happiness in my heart when she replied...

We were just joking the whole night about that like "weh? mas mahal ako ni dyosa" then she will reply "asaaaaa mas mahal ako ni mortal XD" (she called me "Mortal" because everyone called her Dyosa)

It was new years day when i asked her to go out together... January 3, 2009 we met at Mall of Asia i don't know if i could really call it our date because were not really in a relationship.... as our so called "Date" goes on we did go to Powerstation and played a few arcade together after that i treated her on a Ice cream... while eating the ice cream she was telling about her first date... we were about to watch a movie yet our time is not enough because she need to go home early, so i decided to accompany her going home....

While at MRT there were moments that her hair flowed through my face i was joking her "Miss Pantene?" she just laughed.

When we reach Trinoma she said it's for me ok to leave... I said i'll wait until you get in a cab, then the cab arrived as she ride i whispered on his ears "I love you" she immediately reply "I love you too" and smiled.. I don't know what really happen back then as if I'm just dreaming.... but at that point I've really fallen in love with her...

The next day she text me that she was going home at Baguio her home province....

After a week she wasn't texting me anymore yet i continue to greet her at text every morning with "Morning dyosa labs you"

Then suddenly I've received a text from her.... The text message contains this exact words "Suma kedo anata atashi wa daisuki nai" it means "I'm sorry but I don't love you...."

Infatuation?...........

"Nanimo iwazu ni hiki yosete
Hibiki au mune no kodou
Toki no ne ga kikoeru hodo ni
Tameratte furueru nante
Rashiku mo nai
almost in love"

It was almost two weeks when i finally talked to her again like there's nothing happened between us...

Ozine Fest 2009 i got a chance to see her again she was a bit awkward towards me yet still gave my little gift to her...

After the event some ozine forumers decided to join us to play Ragnarok then she did also join us at Valhalla server...

I was a bit happy that she's playing RO and able to spend time with her virtually...

Then it was our guild's hot seat session where we ask questions to the member and he/she must answer it honestly at first she was the hot seat, then the questions immediately got hot because my guild members already knew what are my feelings for her... then it was my time to ask her... suddenly i just asked her "Papayag ka ba na ligawan kita ulit?" she replied briefly "wag muna ngayon" i remembered it was chaud saying "Si GM Dex tunay na lalaki!" hahahaha!

After her hot seat moment i became the next hot seat, of course a lot of intriguing questions was thrown on me but the last question by honou was the question almost everyone reacted "dex fill in the blanks "_____ Raiza kasi______" i answered "Mahal ko si raiza kasi dyosa yan" everyone reacted saying "Whooooooooo!"

RB's guild outing at Bosay resort this is the last time... yeah the last time....

Our guild outing was a night swimming everyone enjoyed specially the turtle pool where we rotate the pool like a snake hahahaha! it was fun! then there was this moment when nix said me and raiza will buy some beer! i just nodded and it was a bit funny that she just tag along with me to buy the beers, as we bought the beers and while walking to go back to our cottage it was just pure silence... i was a bit nervous to start a topic... we've reach our cottage without as exchange of words...

"Kono kagayaki wa ima kimi ga kureta kiseki
Futari no sekai ga ugoki dasu
Te no hira no sasayaki
Tsutaeteru binetsu wa
Tomerare nai koko kara saki
Kitto only you"

Our guild outing ended good and fun but for me there goes my chance....

I was playing Ragnarok when me,honou and neil are chatting, they were asking me what happened at our outing.... I can't really answer them... It's just I'm afraid to be rejected again by her....

Weeks passed school is back again she was already in collage, then again we got awkward to each other....

Month passed i got detached to her because i became busy trying my best to become a better guild master for our guild and also we are far from each other...

Another month passed, early morning I've opened my multiply account and saw their pictures... her picture and a guy making a heart sign with both their hands, it was then i think and said to my self "Tapos na....."

I waited for her to online at YM... as i saw her online i immediately pm her... first i joked her "rai nanjan pa ung RO load mo?" she replied "wala na eh tado kasi ung magnanakaw na wala ung wallet ko :(( " then i said "waaaaaaa! ibig sabihin na wala na din ung card sa powerstation?" "Uu :( " she said.....

I didn't notice tears were flowing... the card from the powerstation arcade was our only remembrance from our "date" yet it was gone....

It's like a sign that i should really stop...

As our conversation at YM continue i didn't asked if she already had a boyfriend i just suddenly said "Rai ung BF mo daw kamuka nung BF ni idol =))" she said "XD"

One of my final words while talking to him at YM that I really can't forget is "Pero buti naman ung taong minahal mo ngayon ay mahal ka din ^^"

That night i didn't cry....

The next day i suddenly remembered that i haven't colored her chibi version of her Ragnarok wizard that was drawn by erin as i rushed coloring it my tears suddenly fell.....

Here's the colored chibi of her wizard.

Here's what I've written at my comment on that art...

"Maybe this is the last time i'll be doing something art related with my purest feelings for the owner of the chibi wizard...

Because next time... I'll just do it as a normal art request"

That night i cry until i fell asleep...

As i woke up the next day i said to myself "wala na"

"Tokimeki wa kimi no tonari de
Kurikaeshi afureru kara
Kono mama tada soba ni ite
Ichibyou mo hanashitaku wa nai aishite iru
I'm in love with you"

Preposterous Month!

2009-10-05T18:20:00.007+08:00

A lot of things happen in the past weeks there comes the Typhoon Ondoy that hit us on Sept. 26 and almost made the whole metro manila sunk in water.

Typhoon Ondoy's wind speed wasn't a real threat, it's max wind speed only reach 85kph but what devastate the metro manila is it's water volume that is equivalent to one month rain fall...

Sept.28-29 my aunt and me decided to go on a volunteer work at GMA kapuso foundation, on Tuesday Sept.29 we were deployed at Marikina to give the relief goods, while on the trip to Marikina i was sitting on the side of the driver's seat and texting some of my friends then suddenly a man grabbed my cellphone! i was pulling my cellphone hard from being snatch! lucky the thief give up!

It was sad when were the ones who's helping the typhoon victims yet they do something bad to us....

Oct.3 I went to Level-up games office for the orientation of our guild booth for the upcoming LU! LIVE 2009 that was my first time to go there and my first time to meet GM Anael(Community Manager of pRO)

So the whole month of September we'll be busy preparing our merchandise and booth....

I'm busy this month yet something is disturbing me... well this "Mr. Agaw Attention" is the boyfriend of my close girl friend, i don't know why... but he's insecure to ME! yeah! to an ugly guy like ME! seriously!(this is the hard part when you have a girl close friend...) "Mr. Agaw Attention" shouldn't be jealous to me and his girlfriend and also my close friend... i should already courted my close friend a very very long time ago if i had a feelings for her...

Anyway....

Good luck to our guild for the upcoming LU! LIVE 2009 on November 7-8 at World Trade Center

Guild master talk

2009-09-25T20:03:00.010+08:00

Pinoy Gaming Network in cooperation with E-games Philippines recently concluded the Guildmasters’ Forum Event on Sept.24 at MilkyWay cafe

Nix and I came to the event and actually we were the early birds to arrive! hahaha!

Then after a while Ragnarok beta player and also the first to became hunter in chaos server came, known as "Biogesic" in chaos server. also the former Ragnarok Game Master Phaige came to the event.

Guildmasters from Cabal, Ran, ZX, Audition,RF Online, Ragnarok Online and even World of Warcraft came! and the Red Elite guild(also valhalla server)came, nix and i had a chance to have a few good talk with them.

The event started with a short introduction and a talk on the IBM study delivered by Pinoy Gaming Network’s own David Ralph Lleno(also known as the Ragnarok Game Hero Sir David)
He briefly touched the subject of the different reasons why online guild leadership has a strong correlation with real life leadership and even leadership in the corporate world.

Well... What he said back then was true... and reflected upon me....

There was also a video clip about online facts that 1 out 8 getting married today met online, then someone said "We have a living proof here!" and Sir David was laughing ehehehe!

He was followed by Gil Edeza President of E-Games and a pioneer of the Philippine online gaming industry.
Mr. Edeza discussed the history of Philippine online gaming and its current state as well as its future outlook, citing that the way things are going poses great opportunities for guildmasters to make better their online influence and apply it to the real world.

Mr. Edeza also said we must look forward in the following months about "Gamers" being "Professional Gamers"

Last and certainly not the least, the keynote speaker on leadership was welcomed, Senator Chiz Escudero.
He discussed the vast similarities of the online world to the real world and the consequences of one’s actions in both. He encouraged guildmasters to use their influence in the online world to make valuable contributions to society at large, the response to his speech was tremendous.

Questions came pouring in during the open forum regarding how guildmasters could use their influence to positively contribute to Philippine society. Senator Escudero promptly answers with an analogy of using the guild as a “rotary club”. He urged that guildmasters like me should discuss things that matter in society with our guildmembers and possibly create events to address these issues. The senator went as far as to say that even if they don’t support him, as long as they engage and get themselves involved (positively) is already a step in the right direction.
There was also one question about being scammed in-game and Senator Chiz asked what can a guildmaster do about it, others answered "wage war agains't the guild where the scammer belong" and Senator Chiz answered " That's Interesting!" everyone laughed!!

Senator Chiz playing Ragnarok(valhalla)

The event ended with photo ops and a raffle that had a few guildmasters walk away with a Chiz Escudero boble head and one very lucky guildmaster from Cabal Online bringing home a brand new iPod from Mobil 1.
And lastly the food was good! yum! yum!

All in all the event was good I've learn something... But up until now i don't know what kind of a guildmaster i am.......

6 Years of Rok On!

2009-09-23T02:14:00.004+08:00

I suddenly stumbled upon Moderator Anakin's thread at ragnaboards... Let me share what he says....

"Ragnarok Online, the Philippines’ first Massively Multiplayer Online Role-playing Game (MMORPG), celebrates its 6th anniversary, and it’s as strong as ever. And while there have been lots of MMORPGs that made their mark in the Philippines in the last few years, like they say, you never forget your first.

For many of us gamers, pRO was our first taste of the world of online games, and have at one point called the city of Prontera our virtual ‘home away from home’. Our passion for the game even influenced the culture and lifestyle of Pinoys, to the point where “amp” and “chicksilog” are now part of everyday lingo. In fact, the strength of our gaming community gave the Philippines the honor of hosting the Ragnarok World Championships in 2008, making it the first time the highly-anticipated international event has ever been held outside of its home base Korea. How’s that for people power?

It’s been 6 years of action-filled fun and excitement, and Philippine Ragnarok Online is ready for more with the coming of the 3rd jobs! So be a part of the celebration of the first and still one of the biggest MMORPG in the Philippines!

Rok on!"

-Anakin ragnaboards moderator

I suddenly remembered my beta days... my first character was a Merchant and the build for my character was a big mess! hahaha!

6 years of playing ragnarok huh? what did i gain after six years of playing it?... i'm just your average player... back then our guild wasn't able to compete in any championship/server eliminations...

All i can say is after playing six years of ragnarok i have met some really great people... all of those wonderful experience... they won't die in my memories...

As my other friends ask me why don't i get tired of playing ragnarok? I simply answer them...

"It's not the gameplay... It's about memories"

Yoshito Usui Forever

2009-09-22T02:30:00.005+08:00

I was watching BBC when i heard the news about the death of the mangaka Yoshito Usui whom created the famous Crayon Shin-chan.

The reports says that Yoshito Usui, was found dead in the mountains of Gunma prefecture after apparently falling to his death off a cliff. Usui had reportedly gone missing on the 11th of the month after telling his family he was going for a day-hike in the mountains.

I suddenly wonder and immediately search to the internet what will happen to the on-going manga of Crayon Shin-chan?

Reports says that the late Usui had already submitted his art for two more installments that Futabasha's Manga Town magazine will continue serializing the Crayon Shin-chan until its December issue.

It's just sad.... that the mangaka won't able to finish his most celebrated work....

Rest in peace Yoshito Usui-sama....

10 Random thoughts of a random mind

2009-09-16T10:31:00.010+08:00

10. I don't know why... but people these days are a bit err..... they simply don't like being called "childish" but the way they act is... anyway if they don't want to be called "childish" don't act like a kid.... it's just simple as that.....

9. I'll just share this text message that i received from a friend yesterday....
"You will never know what you're good at until you try.
When it doesn't work, call it an experiment and never a failure..."

8. Should we stop loving the person we loved deeply just because someone owns them now? yeah... everyone has the right to fall in love yet not all of us can be loved by that person... sad isn't it? but we have to face it... But i don't think we should loving them... because friendship is also a wonderful form of love ^^

7. It's been five months if i remember it correctly.... one of my guild member had a quarrel with his long time friend, it's because of a work related and his friend's girlfriend... yep you got it right "his friend's girlfriend" because all of them work under the same office... anyway i won't tell really what happened between them... i'm just happy that last week my guild member told me that he had an conversation with his friend that both of them are working to regain their lost friendship.

6. Is crying,emoting and being sentimental are a bad thing to do? maybe when we overdo it... dunno... but crying,emoting and being sad and other things isn't really bad... at least we know we're still a human being with a human emotions, it's just part of being a real and complete person ^^

5. Sometimes my friends ask me where do i get my ideas how to solve some of their problems... let me just say... "every home has it's own problem" ^^;

4. I miss drinking coffee!! it's been a month since i fell ill... the doctor said i'm acidic... i'm not allowed to eat nor drink anything with caffeine... O.X

3. July 3-6 our entire family was at Dumaguete for our family reunion all we did is eat,eat and eat! LOL! we got our chance to swim in a very unique beach(well not exactly a beach because the sands got pilled up in the middle of the sea and it's called "sand bar" O.X) also that was my first time to see a dolphins in person O.X

Sorry bad photography! XD

2. Wew! at last i've had my own time to draw for myself! hahaha! here's my latest deviation!

1. I just got 3hours of sleep today because i've had a lot of rush work... i suddenly missed studying at school because of the manga that i've been editing... all of those school scenes... it's been a lot of years... *sigh*

The Invitation

2009-09-15T18:01:00.000+08:00

I was playing pRO(valhalla) last Sunday the suddenly one of my guild member told me that Sir David one of the featured player in Game Heroes and also part of Pinoy Gaming Network was looking for me and said if we could talk at Prontera.....

I really don't know why Sir David was looking for me until i reach prontera..... his paladin was there with all other guild masters of different guilds in our server..... I was a bit nervous when i saw them all chatting in Sir David's Chatroom(PUB) as i enter the PUB my immediate response was "Sir David bakit po?" then he suddenly talk...... "My company pinoy gaming network is running a program for ingame leaders... its a leadership talk, kung baga trying to develop your leadership potential" at that point i don't know what to say hahahaha!

He also said that they also invited guild masters from all Online games in the Philippines.

Here's the official post at ragnaboards regarding the leadership talk officialpost

I've told my mother about it and she said i should go, that i will learn something from different people.

Seesh..... i really don't know what to do...... i'm bad at this kind of stuffs.... i only have few days to think.... since the deadline to confirm my attendance is on or before September 19 - Saturday.