Wishlist

I just want to have a Wishlist(frustrations that I can't have yet XD) here in no particular order

First off, the Figma 1/8 scale of Sheryl Nome from the anime Macross Frontier. I really love that character from the Frontier series. Too bad it's about 76.46 USD(yikees!)

Here is the character art book of Saber from Fate/stay Night series by Type-moon. The art book is 63 pages long and retails for 1,800 yen. It's an excellent art book with tons of art work depicting Saber in various costumes(drools).

And above is the box of the sequel's most popular real time strategy game from Blizzard, StarCraft2. As a kid who grew in the age of computers there's no doubt you don't know StarCraft specially if you are already a gamer in mid 90's. I really! really! want to play it thru Battle.Net, though the original cost 3,500php!(eek!)

Next here is the album cover of Magic Disk, the latest album from ASIAN KUNG-FU GENERATION(Ajikan for short) I love this band since I've heard their music way back in 2004 in the opening music of Naruto. This album contains the song Solanin which is also the main theme of the movie(with the same title) Solanin.

Next up is my biggest frustration as a MTG player! The lightning Bolt Card! when I was introduced to the card game two years ago I was immediately hooked with the Red Deck, then there was this legendary red card called Lightning Bolt. It was said that card was the bread and butter of every Red Deck. Though I know where to buy the card it cost 350php each and my deck needs four of it!(350 x 4 = 1400!) back then when I was still a player I don't have the luxury to spend 1400php for my hobby! so my deck ended incomplete till I decided to stop playing XD

You know what I've realize after writing this blog? It's hard to have a hobby when you don't have a income! XD

Kill the habit

Since I came to work under my uncle's wing my life became so lively? or should I say "still awake at graveyard hours".

I know it's not really good for my body, some people are already telling me I've become more thinner?

For the past days I always told myself I'll be sleeping "earlier" not "early" but I always end up sleeping "early".

Maybe I should kill some of my habits in the midnight, most of my time at midnight I'll just usually read a manga from mangafox telling myself "I'll just read to make myself sleepy" yet in the end I couldn't make myself go to bed because of the manga I've been reading.

And yet here I'am writing a blog, and now it's "early" again damn! XD

Bored or what?!

Dunno whats happening to me for the past days but i'm kinda bored from what I've been doing... maybe because its always repetitive? come to think of it, we usually eat everyday but we don't get bored of it. Why? because of the varieties of the meals? the different people we had together while having our meals? why is that?! well if that is really the answer... maybe i should also try that in my daily routine, but how?

Work is work! you can't tell to your boss that "hey boss I want to work at the beach front because i'm bored at our work place" after saying that, the next thing you'll know is you're saying goodbye to your job.

Even at playing at any type of games, I am bored...

I'm not frustrated... I'm just bored... Am I waiting something exciting to happen like Haruhi Suzumiya?

Metro Comic Con School Tour CSB Edition

Yesterday was the Metro comic con school tour at the De La Salle-College of Saint Benilde.

I wasn't supposed to be there because I have an errand to do and I'm not a student of that school but due to the "convincing"(LOL) of my friend/guildmate erin whom a student at Saint Benilde.(and also my interest in the field of arts) I end up going there.

I came at Vito Cruz LRT Station at 12:40pm then

I meet up with erin, actually it's my first time to enter their school. It was like "Hello Saint Benilde". Anyway enough with the campus tour lol. The MCC was held at the Green Room at the 10th floor, we came there just in time, then we bump one of erin's friend Reeza whom also going to the MCC so we tag along. when I was up to sign for the entrance form it seems i'm the ONLY(because i'm the only one who signed without the student I.D.) outsider came to the said comic seminar! XD

MCC started with some guess artist like Manix Abrera,Lyndon Gregorio,Danny Acuna(I love how sir Danny joke and tell some stories XD) and some more prominent artist here and abroad(sorry I forgot the other artists =__=) sharing how they started in the comic book industry. They also have a lecture on how create a good portfolio headed by sir Heubert Khan Michael, I personally like that lecture XD

Lastly the portfolio review!(gulp) me and erin had our portfolio reviewed by sir Ernest Hernandez, erin's portfolio was good and she was said that her coloring style was good despite how she hates her coloring XD next was my porfolio, I was shocked how sir Ernest told me how'd he like my rush C.C. fan art seriously!? I was expecting more lecture from him but he said I just need a little bit more balancing the hand structure. it was like "really?? thats all I need to improve? XD"

After our portfolio got reviewed we decided to left because erin still have a class and I was still sleepy XD

Lastly here's a photo of me,erin and reeza with sir Manix Abrera(creator of KikoMachine) XD

P.S. thanks erin for the gate pass XD

Till next time!

You know who you are...

Well... Sorry! for what I've done to you and it turn out that I'm not really the person you called "Master dex" sorry... I'm not the perfect guy who can save you always...

I just want to say this before I leave in your sight because I won't be bothering you for the next few months or maybe years I guess? XD I just need time... A time to let this feeling for you... fade...

Well thats it, bidding a goodbye... Till next time friend. ^^

First Love

First love... I can't remember when I first learn the meaning of those words but what is really its meaning? The first girl whom you loved or the things that we really loved to do?

Manga art is my real first love but it seem fate don't want me to be with my first love...

When was the last time I've grabbed a pencil and drew?

Here I am working under my uncle's business... Alone foolishly trying to become an adult... Working to help my family financially...

It's so hard not able to do the things you really love... It's like the feeling of being choked... Dying silently...

There are a lot of things I want to end but I can't... Because they need me... It's always me...

Why I am thinking about this again?... Sometimes I want to become selfish... but I guess I've already done that... Leaving our guild at Valhalla for a while... I know I shouldn't have done that because I'm the guild master but I'm also a human.. Getting burned out... I have the right to file a leave...

Just like kuya marvin said to me "we just have to be responsible" yeah... But how about for ourselves? when we'll be responsible for ourselves?

Sometimes there are days I want to blame my parents why my life turned out like this...

I've been always fighting against jealousy from my friends since I've stopped studying... Seeing them reaching where they want to go, living the "normal life" of a student.

I'm tired of hearing "you're still young, you can still do a lot of things" I'm already 21yrs old Dammit! when will I have a time for my personal goals? when I'am at 30yrs old? goodness!

It's been two months since me and my sensei argued about my decision for not going to japan... choosing my other responsibility...

Sensei... where are you?...

I just wan't to draw again...

Please...

私はまだあなたを愛して

Yeah... You the one and only girl I called "Fiancé"

I still love you...

After our misunderstanding, the past months we both become strangers to one another...

But after what happen to the guild and myself at the world of Valhalla, I felt it's about time to face this... no... you...

I won't return to the past because the old me is stupid to hurt you.

Just thinking about calling you "Fiancé" it makes me miss you more...

Seeing you almost everyday online... always double clicking your yahoo messenger I.D. but afraid to start typing...

But you know... I'm glad we're starting to talk again a bit at Plurk...

Well... what can I do?

I still love you Fiancé ^^