Respect is earned, Not given

Minsan sumilip ako ng Valhalla at may ilang old time GM's parin ng iba't ibang guild ang nakakakilala sakin kht na si Seraphim II na ang gamit ko, Nakakatuwa lng isipin na nandun parin ung respeto nila skn bilang GM ng RB pag kausap ko sila.

Ang masasabi ko lng talaga ay hindi ko makukuha ang respetong iyon kundi din dahil sa mga members na bumuo ng RB at nag tulong tulong maliit man o malaki para buhatin ang RB... Kaya ayun... Salamat. *suot ng cap hangang matakpan muka ko*

It's been years - Ragnarok

Ilang taon na ba ako nag lalaro ng Ragnarok Online? 7 years? 8 years? may napala ba ako? meron naman, na meet ko mga friends ko at naka-experience ng iba't ibang saya,lungkot sa buhay.

Disappointed na ba ako sa Ragnarok? well... sort of...

Disappointed ako dahil unbalance na simula nung lumabas ang mga 3rd jobs.

Disappointed ako dahil wasak na ang economy ng Valhalla server.

Disappointed ako dahil unti-unti nang na pupuno ng mga bot ang Valhalla.

Disappointed ako dahil kibit balikat na lang ang LU sa mga hinaing ng mga loyal players nila.

Disappointed ako..... pag katapos nang mahabang taon... Championship trophy hindi man lang kita mahahawakan....

Alam ko sasabihin ng pangalawang pamilya ko na Seraphim Guild bakit kailangan ko tumigil, pwede naman mag lie-low. Alam ko yan, mahal ko kayo pero hindi naman sa laro natitigil ang pag kakaibigan natin. Patawad pero tatapusin ko na ung pag titiis ko sa ginagawa ng LU sa Ragnarok dahil ayaw ko mag laro kung hindi na ako nasisiyahan.

Ang masasabi ko lang para sa Seraphim ay "Mag enjoy kayo sa gusto niyo, abutin niyo ang mga pangarap niyo hindi lang sa Ragnarok"

Iba talaga ung "una" eh dahil ang Ragnarok Online ay an

g unang Online game ko... Kaya mananatili ito sa puso ko...

At the end of the day laro lang ang Ragnarok Online, Merong ending... Lahat ng bagay na tatapos.

SALAMAT...

Annihilation Guild

Fury Guild

Absolute Supremacy Guild

Revamped-D-Resurrection Guild

Innovator's Guild

Seraphim Guild

At higit sa lahat...

Revamped_Blasphemy Guild

Goodbye Ragnarok Online it's been years!

LU LIVE! 2010

It's just two days before the much anticipated event for LU Gamers like me, LU LIVE! 2010

Well what should we expect this year? I guess nothing fancy especially the "early bird" promo for Ragnarok gamers *cough*

But I guess everyone is expecting a lot of cosplayers will be cosplaying the new 3rd jobs from Ragnarok online, well who doesn't? hahaha!

Anyway visit our guild booth this year Revamped_Blasphemy! we will be selling pins,keychain,t-shirt and Head gears from Ragnarok online so be sure to come!

There it is...

Yesterday was the championship for valhalla server...

Our guild was participating, our first match would be up against New Directions guild...

We are all hopeful that we could win it.. But it didn't turn that way... I messed up in the first round of our match against New Directions guild... We were already leading at that round, our team where already shouting "ayan na bagsak na ung champion nila" but there goes me... A messed up game....

Round two... I could say it was a hard fought match... But New Directions still prevailed...

After the match our team goes to their own houses... but for me I stayed at SM southmall, I couldn't contain my emotions... I rush to the bathroom staying there for forty minutes... crying...

I know we should be proud what we have achieved this RPC season, but I'm still bitter at my performance yesterday... I just thought that after six years it's about time that Revamped guild would be crowned as champion...

Oh well.... I have to wait another year *Sigh*

Road to skydome...

It's just five days before my very first big fight in my whole Ragnarok online career.... It takes six years before I reached this level.... Road to skydome huh?...

I want to reach it...

Tears in the middle of war

Here I am facing the giants of pRO agit lords tournament....


I've already prepared myself from the pain that this war might bring.... yet sometimes we really don't know what will came upon us...


Last Monday I've received a call from my mother, she was crying... then she told me that our grandmother fell from that stairs of their house...


I didn't knew what to do.... I was torn to make a decision to leave the guild before the woe start or to be at the side of my grandmother...


Though I am the guild master, I think I also have the responsibility to be a grandchild for my grandmother...


It's hard to make a decision like that specially at the time of agit lords....


I have decided to be a grandchild for that day...


As I came at the house of my grandmother, I didn't knew what will I saw...


I greeted my grandmother and said "lola nandito na ako... ok lang kayo?" my grandmother replied...

"Mmm..."

"......"

Then my uncle suddenly talk.... "Hindi na makakilala.."

I was not emotionally prepared when I saw my grandmother in her condition... she suddenly became bedridden... the grandmother I known since childhood was a strong one...

I didn't knew It but I was already crying... I told myself "punyeta ano nangyari kay lola..."


I immediately called Christopher one of our nurse in the guild and told him what happen... he told me that my grandmother must be bought to the hospital ASAP.

I told my aunt that we must bring our grandmother to the hospital but it seems that they don't care that much...

My grandmother told them not to bring her to the hospital...

My aunt said "baka may kung ano pa mangyari sa lola niyo sa hospital"

I told myself "putang ina! mas walang mangyayari kay lola pag hindi dinala sa hospital.."

Then my uncle said "bukas dadalhin natin lola niyo sa hospital"

That night... All I did was crying...

I was mad at myself.. I can't do anything..

Tuesday came... I wake up early morning to return at my work place, I told my uncle that my mom will come here and they'll bring grandma to the hospital...

I've left without saying goodbye to my grandmother...

As the night came... I was worried that my mother haven't messaged me that they've already bring grandma to the hospital...

As Wednesday morning came my mother messaged me that they're bringing grandma to the hospital...

I was a bit disappointed... why did it take so long to bring grandma at the hospital...

12pm my mother messaged me that our grandmother is now at the hospital.

".........."

2pm my mother messaged me again, she told me that our grandma is fine and going home that day she just need to take her daily med, though her bones at the hips have cracked the doctor said it will heal trough time.

I was relieved...

4pm a friend of mine was online at yahoo messenger.

I instant message him and asked him how is he in the past few days...

he replied "wala malapit nako ma operahan kaya hinay hinay lang sa pag computer"

I was shocked...

"meh varicocele ako, ipapatanggal ko yung varicocele ko"

"hindi naman siya life threatening pero dapat lang tlga siya gawin"

He told me not to tell his condition at our other friends... I know it's not that life threatening. but I'm still worried...


Later that night

I was looking at my plurk timeline when "she" posted "after two years may crush na ulit ako"


I told myself "buti ka pa nakapag move on na... ako kelan kaya...." a tear fell from my eyes...

Because I'm still mad at myself for hurting her...

I shouldn't be thinking of these at this time of agit lords.... but I can't control my emotions....

Deep breath

Kagabi ang unang siege namin para sa Agit Lord may mga bagay na hindi ako inaasahan na nang yari... unang-una dalawang guild laban sa tatlong guilds... pangalawa kaya pala namin sila sa clash kahit lamang sila sa dami...


Na tapos ang siege at naka isang agit lang kami, ang lalim nang hinga ko... hindi ko makontrol... hindi nga agad pumasok sa isip ko ung mga nangyari matapos ung siege.


Kahit hindi nakuha ng Finest guild ang honor agit at na deny ung main agit na kinuha namin may mga magandang resulta parin para sa akin.


Pero naramdaman ko nanaman ulit ung dati kong nararamdaman nuon tuwing Agit Lord season... Ung excitement...

So be it!

Malapit na mag simula ang scoring ng Agit Lords at kami ang pangbato ng alliance namin sa phase two...


Eto na din ang possibleng huling laban ko... At eto na din ang magiging pinakamahirap sa buong RO career ko...


Nakataya na dito ang buong sarili ko... Nakataya na dito kung may silbi ba talaga akong bilang guild master ng guild... Nakataya na din dito ang future career ko sa RO... Nakataya na din dito ung pride ko sa pagiging LK, kung kaya parin ba makipagsabayan ng mga LK sa mga champs kapag Woe gaya nuong unang panahon sa RO... Nakataya na din dito ang pera ng guild... Nakataya na din dito ung pagiging member ko ng Revamped nuon dahil sigurado ako Bitzbox ang makakalaban namin... Ang guild na hindi namin matalo-talo nuon sa fenrir.... Pag kakataon ko na ito para ipaghiganti ung past efforts namin nuon... Nakataya na din dito ang efforts ng ibang guilds na kasama sa alliance... Nakataya na din dito ang effort ng buong guild... Nakataya na din dito ang Pangalan ko... At higit sa lahat nakataya na dito ang pangalan ng guild.

I Hope...

I'm returning home to valhalla... I just hope I'm not yet to late to fix myself as a guildmaster... I know I've have so many to come up with my members... It's just some of my IRL problems have pushed me to leave them back then... But I guess a have to start forgiving myself first before anything else...


I hope... I'm not yet late...

Leaving the impossible

Six years of playing pRO?

What can I say? NONE!! It's just sometimes I want to leave the whole community yet it's just impossible...


First and foremost the reason sometimes I want to leave the online gaming community FOR GOOD is because I just got tired... second is the pressure of being the guild master... it's just that some of my personal issues is being tied up because of too much playing... and third some financial issues... well you can't go head on other guilds without spending for ROK points...


And lastly... I'm just afraid that the girl I really love might stop playing because of me...


Yet I can't leave... The guild that started with only six members now grew to 20+ members. It became a family...


A guild that I can't leave because of that "family".

Inconsiderate fool

I don't know why... but it seems I'm the most inconsiderate fool... I've hurt her feelings... but I won't let this end like this... even if we'll go back to the beginning and even it takes a long time....

I've learned a important lesson from what I've done.... I won't do this ever again!

Gomenasai fiance....

New year, New challenges

I've been busy with so many things this past December 0'9 that even this my blog I've forgot to update XD


A lot of things happened to our guild... I didn't think that we overcome all of those challenges despite how big the problem is...

I'm proud of all the achievement of my guild members in-game or in real life.

Anyway... there is this girl that made my December warm... I just didn't expect her to come... but still I'm happy for us, Hoping that year 2010 will be good for us ^^

Year 2010 here I come!!

LU Live 0'9 United We Play

Thousands of Pinoy Gamers Unite at Level Up! LIVE 2009

LU Live 0'9 was held on Nov.7-8 at world trade center were different tournaments of online games are held, like Ragnarok,RF,Rohan,FlyFF,Freestyle,Crazy Cart,Grand Chase,Perfect world and the highly-anticipated FPS online KOS: Secret Operations

[The tournament grounds]

And of course our guild Revamped_Blasphemy was part of the "LU City" where guilds setup different in-game themed booth from their respective games.

[our booth in the making]

Early Nov.6 we were already at WTC for the Ingress of the LU Live

[my ID as an exhibitor]

[our humble booth]

I was able to meet in-person Blade Fury` the guild master of KB(one of my ally guilds in valhalla) and some other notable persons in valhalla and thanks to Athalia for buying one of our T-shirts hohoho!

[Valhalla freedom board by Prism Infinity guild]

[The guild masters of valhalla with GM Anael]

And of course our guild... the Revamped_Blasphemy at LU Live 0'9

[Revamped Blasphemy]

Nov.5 was officially our guild anniversary but since LU Live 0'9 is just around the corner I decided we celebrate our guild anniversary at LU Live 0'9. This is the first time I met some of my members "personally"

[RB's 99ners]

[RB's Team Bagets]

[The new members]

Our LU Live 0'9 ended with a little celebration at the Mall of Asia.

And thanks to our guild booth neighbor Red Elite™(also valhalla server) GM Nimrod Soulfist and Blushing Virgin for the tekken 3 match(Revamped vs. Finest) hahaha!

Also I would like to thank Erin Bare for helping us managing our booth, My guild members for the support and specially Nix and Erin for the hard work for our guild booth.

See you next year!