私はまだあなたを愛して

Yeah... You the one and only girl I called "Fiancé"

I still love you...

After our misunderstanding, the past months we both become strangers to one another...

But after what happen to the guild and myself at the world of Valhalla, I felt it's about time to face this... no... you...

I won't return to the past because the old me is stupid to hurt you.

Just thinking about calling you "Fiancé" it makes me miss you more...

Seeing you almost everyday online... always double clicking your yahoo messenger I.D. but afraid to start typing...

But you know... I'm glad we're starting to talk again a bit at Plurk...

Well... what can I do?

I still love you Fiancé ^^

There it is...

Yesterday was the championship for valhalla server...

Our guild was participating, our first match would be up against New Directions guild...

We are all hopeful that we could win it.. But it didn't turn that way... I messed up in the first round of our match against New Directions guild... We were already leading at that round, our team where already shouting "ayan na bagsak na ung champion nila" but there goes me... A messed up game....

Round two... I could say it was a hard fought match... But New Directions still prevailed...

After the match our team goes to their own houses... but for me I stayed at SM southmall, I couldn't contain my emotions... I rush to the bathroom staying there for forty minutes... crying...

I know we should be proud what we have achieved this RPC season, but I'm still bitter at my performance yesterday... I just thought that after six years it's about time that Revamped guild would be crowned as champion...

Oh well.... I have to wait another year *Sigh*

Road to skydome...

It's just five days before my very first big fight in my whole Ragnarok online career.... It takes six years before I reached this level.... Road to skydome huh?...

I want to reach it...

Kaeru basho de aru you ni

I just felt writing in the air today...


I am frustrated in what is happening in my life...


Up until now, my sensei still mad at me since I've chosen that path... when will be the time he'll forgive me...


Frustrated that my family is arguing about my grandmother's money... They should be worrying about her health for god's sake... what a disgrace...


Frustrated how I'm easily get distracted...


Frustrated that what ever I do, I won't be that old me two years ago... the leader... the sub guild master... I pity myself... I was a better leader back then.... It's so frustrating...


Frustrated about myself.... Why can't I live up to their expectations...


Frustrated that sometimes I just want to lock myself in this room where I am right now... away from all these noise...


Frustrated that.... I still love her.... I know that she won't ever forgive me.... Suppressing this feeling... It sucks....


It's so frustrating how my life turned like this....


"kaeru basho de aru you ni"

Simula na....

June na at simula na nang matinding pag iipon... hehe....