White all over

Anu ba ginawa ko buong december? party dito party doon? hahaha! normal na ata un lalo na sa buwan ng december kung saan kabi-kabila ang party.

Malapit na matapos ang taon in 3days goodbye 2010 na...

May napala ba ako ngayon taon? meron din naman ata... hahaha!

Ano ba aabangan ko next year? more projects? haha! pero cguro nga "more projects" hehe!

Kasama ko na cguro sa iiwan ang mga mali ko ngayong taon sa pag palit ng taon(para mga bagong kasalanan ulit haha! joke)

-dex singing off

Private Server or not?

I don't know what's with Level-Up games Philippines in the past weeks... It's just seems that there just flooding their Ragnarok players with the "Convert and Receive" event! a.k.a CnR.

CnR is where you will top-up worth 500php on the day of event then convert it to either Rok points(currency to use at item mall) or have your account on Premium, then you will receive the corresponding item for that event day..

So whats bad about it?

It seems that Ragnarok is just about money!!

Their giving what the players want almost every other day! making the game imbalance in my opinion. The sense of hunting/farming of items is long way gone!

I'm not really against the CnR promo but I hope they consider the items what will they release at the promo. It's just every powerful equipment is on the list of CnR.. Variant,Agent Skin,KvM Armors, LBH Set... What's next? Naght Sieger swords!?

So what will happen now at pRO? will it follow the same footsteps of those other private server that became unbalance because of their donate system?

I HOPE IT WON'T!

Ever-changing battle field

It's been more than a week since I've started my studies to improve what skills I have and ended just yesterday.

I did enjoy my week full of studies with different mentors.

Summer is nearing fast... I just hope I can pull this everything off.. And oh yeah there's still the Christmas season!

I guess this is what my sensei told me when I was young... "constant challenge, an ever-changing battle field"

LU LIVE! 2010

It's just two days before the much anticipated event for LU Gamers like me, LU LIVE! 2010

Well what should we expect this year? I guess nothing fancy especially the "early bird" promo for Ragnarok gamers *cough*

But I guess everyone is expecting a lot of cosplayers will be cosplaying the new 3rd jobs from Ragnarok online, well who doesn't? hahaha!

Anyway visit our guild booth this year Revamped_Blasphemy! we will be selling pins,keychain,t-shirt and Head gears from Ragnarok online so be sure to come!

Infinite Glider

Kotaenai ano hi no kokage
Mujou wo satotta yo, sukoshi
Saegiru koe

Tsumekonda nimotsu no sukima
KUSHAKUSHA ni natteta kokoro
Hirogete yomikaesu

Modoranai ano hi no kokage
Jibun ga wakatta yo, sukoshi
Saegiru koe

Tsumekonda nimotsu no sukima
KUSHAKUSHA ni natteta yume mo
Hirogete yomikaesu

Surai yo surai mou genjitsu to risou no sakaime de bokura no
Yume, kibou, sono tagui kudaketa maboroshi
Itai yo itai mou genjitsu wo uketometa ano hi no bokura no
Kokoro no katasumi Ukan da omokage

Togisunda kankaku
Kimi wo motto boku wo motto kanjite bokura wa tobu
Hirogeta ryouyoku
Kaze wo motto kibou motto
Wazuka ni habataku GLIDER

Mugen?
Yurai da

Yuugen
Tsumari wa

Surai yo surai mou genjitsu to risou no sakaime de bokura no
Yume, kibou, sono tagui kudaketa maboroshi
Itai yo itai mou genjitsu wo uketometa ano hi no bokura no
Kokoro no katasumi Ukan da omokage

Togisunda kankaku
Kimi wo motto boku wo motto kanjite bokura wa tobu
Hirogeta ryouyoku
Kaze wo motto kibou motto
Wazuka ni habataku GLIDER

Mugen?
Yurai da

Yuugen
Tsumari wa

Mugen
Yuugen
Mugen

(lyrics of Mugen Glider by ASIAN KUNG-FU GENERATION)

Deep inside me..

My rival is calling me again....

Once again we shall face head on!

Rolling Days

Sorry I want to write in Tagalog today XD

Kanina habang online ako sa YM ginawa kong "Waiter pabalot, pwede bang mabalot sa pag-ibig? pwede pa take-out?" ang status ko tapos bigla na lang nag IM si kuya marvin sakin "lol @ status" ang reply ko "kanta yan hahaha" reply ba naman ni kuya marvin "ayyy" na tawa na lang ako hahahaha!

Pero lovelife? saka na lang cguro, masaya naman ang buhay kahit walang lovelife dahil na buhay naman tayo sa simula nung wala yan. Oo masarap pag may minamahal at may nag mamahal sayo pero sabi nga sa quotes "Fall inlove when you are ready not when you are feeling lonely" tama naman diba ^^

Nanjan naman ang mga kapatid kong mga babae sila na lang muna aalagaan ko hahahaha! pero sa totoo lang masaya mag karoon ng mga kapatid babae, kahit hindi ko sila totoong mga kapatid pero ang turingan namin ay bilang totoong mag kapatid(kahit puro sila pa libre kay kuya, ok lang love ko naman mga sis ko hehe) ^^

Kahapon nga pala nag punta ako sa day 2 ng Cosmania X sa SMX nag enjoy ako sa event ang tagal na din kasi nung huli kong pinuntahan na anime/game convention dahil LU Live 0'9 pa ung huli hahahaha!

Influence

"influence" vs "inspiration," these two terms are interchangeable in this meme. If you are inspired by something, you are thereby influenced by it

- fox-orian

Disclaimer: I do not own any of the pictures here.

Credit goes to Fox-Orian for the idea of making the Influence Map.

So here goes me XD

Masashi Kishimoto - The mangaka of the famous manga series Naruto. As the manga Naruto continues it gradually change my point of view how to create a shonen manga.

Tetsuya Nomura - Hired by Square(now as Square Enix) as a debugger for the game Final Fantasy IV until his major breakthrough for the game Final Fantasy VII as Square asked him to be the character designer for Final Fantasy VII to replace Yoshitaka Amano. It was a critical and commercial success. He also directed the CGI animated film Final Fantasy VII Advent Children which was released on 2005. He's the main reason why I love RPG games XD

Shinonome Taro - The mangaka for the manga adaptation of the dating simulation game KimiKiss for PS2 entitled KimiKiss Various Heroines. His unique art style of creating female characters caught my attention.

Summer Wars - From the director of The Girl Who Leapt Through Time, Mamoru Hosoda. This film inspired me in many ways. Unique color style and animation wise.

Ken Akamatsu - The famous mangaka behind A.I. Love You,Love Hina and Mahou Sensei Negima! I was eleven years old when his works was my first introduction to the Harem genre. He inspired me a lot when creating a harem genre.

Noizi Ito - The character designer and artist for the Shakugan no Shana and The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya and her latest work Bee-be-beat it! her excellent art style specially when it comes to "MOE" style characters influenced me a lot.

Code Geass - From CLAMP the anime that made me think deeper when it comes to writing a plot and the distinct art style when it comes to male hair styles.

Macross - A long-running series of science fiction mecha anime, created by Shōji Kawamori of Studio Nue in 1982. It consists of three TV series, four movies, six OVAs. Though this Isn't my first anime but this was the first anime that showed me how great an anime can be, from the mecha design, intriguing love story and the introduction of the first anime idol Lynn Minmay. Up until now I'm still excited to see what will the be the next macross series can show to me XD

Type-Moon - A prominent Japanese game company that inspired me in many ways, best known for their visual novels, co-founded by author Kinoko Nasu and illustrator Takashi Takeuchi. In December 2002, Type-Moon released their first fighting game, Melty Blood, a PC-based doujin game based on the Tsukihime universe it was also my first introduction to their works and introduced me to the doujin world. Later Type-Moon soon transitioned from a dojin soft organization to a commercial organization, and in January 2004, released their first commercial release, a PC-based eroge visual novel game, Fate/stay night. Because of Fate/stay night I was hooked to the culture of VN style art form!

My original post at DA can be found HERE and Fox-Orian's Influence Map template can be found HERE

Doujin?

It's been one week since I've started creating a doujin game about Ragnarok Online. The game typical classic RPG game and the software that Ive'd been using is called RPG Maker VX. at the first day I was like "Okay first I'll create the maps" then after searching on the internet for some guides and seeing some impressive game demos that has been created thru RPG Maker VX it was like "Okay I want that feature in my game and that too..." I was stuck testing some other's game scripts hahaha!! I was like a little boy that like to have every toy he sees hahaha!!

I think as a beginner I should avoid that attitude XD

Here is a screenshot of the center of Prontera

Anyway I have to return to programming my game now hahaha!

Wishlist

I just want to have a Wishlist(frustrations that I can't have yet XD) here in no particular order

First off, the Figma 1/8 scale of Sheryl Nome from the anime Macross Frontier. I really love that character from the Frontier series. Too bad it's about 76.46 USD(yikees!)

Here is the character art book of Saber from Fate/stay Night series by Type-moon. The art book is 63 pages long and retails for 1,800 yen. It's an excellent art book with tons of art work depicting Saber in various costumes(drools).

And above is the box of the sequel's most popular real time strategy game from Blizzard, StarCraft2. As a kid who grew in the age of computers there's no doubt you don't know StarCraft specially if you are already a gamer in mid 90's. I really! really! want to play it thru Battle.Net, though the original cost 3,500php!(eek!)

Next here is the album cover of Magic Disk, the latest album from ASIAN KUNG-FU GENERATION(Ajikan for short) I love this band since I've heard their music way back in 2004 in the opening music of Naruto. This album contains the song Solanin which is also the main theme of the movie(with the same title) Solanin.

Next up is my biggest frustration as a MTG player! The lightning Bolt Card! when I was introduced to the card game two years ago I was immediately hooked with the Red Deck, then there was this legendary red card called Lightning Bolt. It was said that card was the bread and butter of every Red Deck. Though I know where to buy the card it cost 350php each and my deck needs four of it!(350 x 4 = 1400!) back then when I was still a player I don't have the luxury to spend 1400php for my hobby! so my deck ended incomplete till I decided to stop playing XD

You know what I've realize after writing this blog? It's hard to have a hobby when you don't have a income! XD

Kill the habit

Since I came to work under my uncle's wing my life became so lively? or should I say "still awake at graveyard hours".

I know it's not really good for my body, some people are already telling me I've become more thinner?

For the past days I always told myself I'll be sleeping "earlier" not "early" but I always end up sleeping "early".

Maybe I should kill some of my habits in the midnight, most of my time at midnight I'll just usually read a manga from mangafox telling myself "I'll just read to make myself sleepy" yet in the end I couldn't make myself go to bed because of the manga I've been reading.

And yet here I'am writing a blog, and now it's "early" again damn! XD

Bored or what?!

Dunno whats happening to me for the past days but i'm kinda bored from what I've been doing... maybe because its always repetitive? come to think of it, we usually eat everyday but we don't get bored of it. Why? because of the varieties of the meals? the different people we had together while having our meals? why is that?! well if that is really the answer... maybe i should also try that in my daily routine, but how?

Work is work! you can't tell to your boss that "hey boss I want to work at the beach front because i'm bored at our work place" after saying that, the next thing you'll know is you're saying goodbye to your job.

Even at playing at any type of games, I am bored...

I'm not frustrated... I'm just bored... Am I waiting something exciting to happen like Haruhi Suzumiya?

Metro Comic Con School Tour CSB Edition

Yesterday was the Metro comic con school tour at the De La Salle-College of Saint Benilde.

I wasn't supposed to be there because I have an errand to do and I'm not a student of that school but due to the "convincing"(LOL) of my friend/guildmate erin whom a student at Saint Benilde.(and also my interest in the field of arts) I end up going there.

I came at Vito Cruz LRT Station at 12:40pm then

I meet up with erin, actually it's my first time to enter their school. It was like "Hello Saint Benilde". Anyway enough with the campus tour lol. The MCC was held at the Green Room at the 10th floor, we came there just in time, then we bump one of erin's friend Reeza whom also going to the MCC so we tag along. when I was up to sign for the entrance form it seems i'm the ONLY(because i'm the only one who signed without the student I.D.) outsider came to the said comic seminar! XD

MCC started with some guess artist like Manix Abrera,Lyndon Gregorio,Danny Acuna(I love how sir Danny joke and tell some stories XD) and some more prominent artist here and abroad(sorry I forgot the other artists =__=) sharing how they started in the comic book industry. They also have a lecture on how create a good portfolio headed by sir Heubert Khan Michael, I personally like that lecture XD

Lastly the portfolio review!(gulp) me and erin had our portfolio reviewed by sir Ernest Hernandez, erin's portfolio was good and she was said that her coloring style was good despite how she hates her coloring XD next was my porfolio, I was shocked how sir Ernest told me how'd he like my rush C.C. fan art seriously!? I was expecting more lecture from him but he said I just need a little bit more balancing the hand structure. it was like "really?? thats all I need to improve? XD"

After our portfolio got reviewed we decided to left because erin still have a class and I was still sleepy XD

Lastly here's a photo of me,erin and reeza with sir Manix Abrera(creator of KikoMachine) XD

P.S. thanks erin for the gate pass XD

Till next time!

You know who you are...

Well... Sorry! for what I've done to you and it turn out that I'm not really the person you called "Master dex" sorry... I'm not the perfect guy who can save you always...

I just want to say this before I leave in your sight because I won't be bothering you for the next few months or maybe years I guess? XD I just need time... A time to let this feeling for you... fade...

Well thats it, bidding a goodbye... Till next time friend. ^^

First Love

First love... I can't remember when I first learn the meaning of those words but what is really its meaning? The first girl whom you loved or the things that we really loved to do?

Manga art is my real first love but it seem fate don't want me to be with my first love...

When was the last time I've grabbed a pencil and drew?

Here I am working under my uncle's business... Alone foolishly trying to become an adult... Working to help my family financially...

It's so hard not able to do the things you really love... It's like the feeling of being choked... Dying silently...

There are a lot of things I want to end but I can't... Because they need me... It's always me...

Why I am thinking about this again?... Sometimes I want to become selfish... but I guess I've already done that... Leaving our guild at Valhalla for a while... I know I shouldn't have done that because I'm the guild master but I'm also a human.. Getting burned out... I have the right to file a leave...

Just like kuya marvin said to me "we just have to be responsible" yeah... But how about for ourselves? when we'll be responsible for ourselves?

Sometimes there are days I want to blame my parents why my life turned out like this...

I've been always fighting against jealousy from my friends since I've stopped studying... Seeing them reaching where they want to go, living the "normal life" of a student.

I'm tired of hearing "you're still young, you can still do a lot of things" I'm already 21yrs old Dammit! when will I have a time for my personal goals? when I'am at 30yrs old? goodness!

It's been two months since me and my sensei argued about my decision for not going to japan... choosing my other responsibility...

Sensei... where are you?...

I just wan't to draw again...

Please...

私はまだあなたを愛して

Yeah... You the one and only girl I called "Fiancé"

I still love you...

After our misunderstanding, the past months we both become strangers to one another...

But after what happen to the guild and myself at the world of Valhalla, I felt it's about time to face this... no... you...

I won't return to the past because the old me is stupid to hurt you.

Just thinking about calling you "Fiancé" it makes me miss you more...

Seeing you almost everyday online... always double clicking your yahoo messenger I.D. but afraid to start typing...

But you know... I'm glad we're starting to talk again a bit at Plurk...

Well... what can I do?

I still love you Fiancé ^^

There it is...

Yesterday was the championship for valhalla server...

Our guild was participating, our first match would be up against New Directions guild...

We are all hopeful that we could win it.. But it didn't turn that way... I messed up in the first round of our match against New Directions guild... We were already leading at that round, our team where already shouting "ayan na bagsak na ung champion nila" but there goes me... A messed up game....

Round two... I could say it was a hard fought match... But New Directions still prevailed...

After the match our team goes to their own houses... but for me I stayed at SM southmall, I couldn't contain my emotions... I rush to the bathroom staying there for forty minutes... crying...

I know we should be proud what we have achieved this RPC season, but I'm still bitter at my performance yesterday... I just thought that after six years it's about time that Revamped guild would be crowned as champion...

Oh well.... I have to wait another year *Sigh*

Road to skydome...

It's just five days before my very first big fight in my whole Ragnarok online career.... It takes six years before I reached this level.... Road to skydome huh?...

I want to reach it...

Kaeru basho de aru you ni

I just felt writing in the air today...


I am frustrated in what is happening in my life...


Up until now, my sensei still mad at me since I've chosen that path... when will be the time he'll forgive me...


Frustrated that my family is arguing about my grandmother's money... They should be worrying about her health for god's sake... what a disgrace...


Frustrated how I'm easily get distracted...


Frustrated that what ever I do, I won't be that old me two years ago... the leader... the sub guild master... I pity myself... I was a better leader back then.... It's so frustrating...


Frustrated about myself.... Why can't I live up to their expectations...


Frustrated that sometimes I just want to lock myself in this room where I am right now... away from all these noise...


Frustrated that.... I still love her.... I know that she won't ever forgive me.... Suppressing this feeling... It sucks....


It's so frustrating how my life turned like this....


"kaeru basho de aru you ni"

Simula na....

June na at simula na nang matinding pag iipon... hehe....

Confused...

I don't know why... but I'm deeply confused about myself... I wonder how I'm going to celebrate my upcoming birthday this June...

And the mere fact that I'm singing again "Almost in love" by Chemistry makes me more confused... Why?... Who's the girl I'm singing it for?....

Tears in the middle of war

Here I am facing the giants of pRO agit lords tournament....


I've already prepared myself from the pain that this war might bring.... yet sometimes we really don't know what will came upon us...


Last Monday I've received a call from my mother, she was crying... then she told me that our grandmother fell from that stairs of their house...


I didn't knew what to do.... I was torn to make a decision to leave the guild before the woe start or to be at the side of my grandmother...


Though I am the guild master, I think I also have the responsibility to be a grandchild for my grandmother...


It's hard to make a decision like that specially at the time of agit lords....


I have decided to be a grandchild for that day...


As I came at the house of my grandmother, I didn't knew what will I saw...


I greeted my grandmother and said "lola nandito na ako... ok lang kayo?" my grandmother replied...

"Mmm..."

"......"

Then my uncle suddenly talk.... "Hindi na makakilala.."

I was not emotionally prepared when I saw my grandmother in her condition... she suddenly became bedridden... the grandmother I known since childhood was a strong one...

I didn't knew It but I was already crying... I told myself "punyeta ano nangyari kay lola..."


I immediately called Christopher one of our nurse in the guild and told him what happen... he told me that my grandmother must be bought to the hospital ASAP.

I told my aunt that we must bring our grandmother to the hospital but it seems that they don't care that much...

My grandmother told them not to bring her to the hospital...

My aunt said "baka may kung ano pa mangyari sa lola niyo sa hospital"

I told myself "putang ina! mas walang mangyayari kay lola pag hindi dinala sa hospital.."

Then my uncle said "bukas dadalhin natin lola niyo sa hospital"

That night... All I did was crying...

I was mad at myself.. I can't do anything..

Tuesday came... I wake up early morning to return at my work place, I told my uncle that my mom will come here and they'll bring grandma to the hospital...

I've left without saying goodbye to my grandmother...

As the night came... I was worried that my mother haven't messaged me that they've already bring grandma to the hospital...

As Wednesday morning came my mother messaged me that they're bringing grandma to the hospital...

I was a bit disappointed... why did it take so long to bring grandma at the hospital...

12pm my mother messaged me that our grandmother is now at the hospital.

".........."

2pm my mother messaged me again, she told me that our grandma is fine and going home that day she just need to take her daily med, though her bones at the hips have cracked the doctor said it will heal trough time.

I was relieved...

4pm a friend of mine was online at yahoo messenger.

I instant message him and asked him how is he in the past few days...

he replied "wala malapit nako ma operahan kaya hinay hinay lang sa pag computer"

I was shocked...

"meh varicocele ako, ipapatanggal ko yung varicocele ko"

"hindi naman siya life threatening pero dapat lang tlga siya gawin"

He told me not to tell his condition at our other friends... I know it's not that life threatening. but I'm still worried...


Later that night

I was looking at my plurk timeline when "she" posted "after two years may crush na ulit ako"


I told myself "buti ka pa nakapag move on na... ako kelan kaya...." a tear fell from my eyes...

Because I'm still mad at myself for hurting her...

I shouldn't be thinking of these at this time of agit lords.... but I can't control my emotions....

Deep breath

Kagabi ang unang siege namin para sa Agit Lord may mga bagay na hindi ako inaasahan na nang yari... unang-una dalawang guild laban sa tatlong guilds... pangalawa kaya pala namin sila sa clash kahit lamang sila sa dami...


Na tapos ang siege at naka isang agit lang kami, ang lalim nang hinga ko... hindi ko makontrol... hindi nga agad pumasok sa isip ko ung mga nangyari matapos ung siege.


Kahit hindi nakuha ng Finest guild ang honor agit at na deny ung main agit na kinuha namin may mga magandang resulta parin para sa akin.


Pero naramdaman ko nanaman ulit ung dati kong nararamdaman nuon tuwing Agit Lord season... Ung excitement...

So be it!

Malapit na mag simula ang scoring ng Agit Lords at kami ang pangbato ng alliance namin sa phase two...


Eto na din ang possibleng huling laban ko... At eto na din ang magiging pinakamahirap sa buong RO career ko...


Nakataya na dito ang buong sarili ko... Nakataya na dito kung may silbi ba talaga akong bilang guild master ng guild... Nakataya na din dito ang future career ko sa RO... Nakataya na din dito ung pride ko sa pagiging LK, kung kaya parin ba makipagsabayan ng mga LK sa mga champs kapag Woe gaya nuong unang panahon sa RO... Nakataya na din dito ang pera ng guild... Nakataya na din dito ung pagiging member ko ng Revamped nuon dahil sigurado ako Bitzbox ang makakalaban namin... Ang guild na hindi namin matalo-talo nuon sa fenrir.... Pag kakataon ko na ito para ipaghiganti ung past efforts namin nuon... Nakataya na din dito ang efforts ng ibang guilds na kasama sa alliance... Nakataya na din dito ang effort ng buong guild... Nakataya na din dito ang Pangalan ko... At higit sa lahat nakataya na dito ang pangalan ng guild.

I Hope...

I'm returning home to valhalla... I just hope I'm not yet to late to fix myself as a guildmaster... I know I've have so many to come up with my members... It's just some of my IRL problems have pushed me to leave them back then... But I guess a have to start forgiving myself first before anything else...


I hope... I'm not yet late...

Summer Madness!

Movie title: Summer Wars

Genre: Action,Comedy


From the director of The Girl Who Leapt Through Time, Hosoda Mamoru.

The story is about Kenji, a high school student who works part time maintaining a virtual online world called Oz. Oz is just like your favorite MMORPG but instead of just games, services like banking,paying bills and other real life services are connected to Oz and can be used just by e-mail or cellphone. On the other hand Kenji has a crush on her sempai Natsuki whom invites him to work part time in the countryside over the summer. The job, Kenji finds, is to act like Natsuki's fiancé to please her Grandma!

As the story goes an A.I. virus called "Love Machine" starts unleashing hell on Oz and using the online infrastructure to throw the real world into utter chaos!

When watching this film one might feel like they are viewing a moving picture book, a family photo album turned back a few decades. The vibe is really Showa Era Japan, the good old days.

I won't say anything more about this movie because I don't want to spoil everyone.

The animation is good from the virtual world of Oz to the real world. Voice acting is also good and even the BGM the soft sound of summer!

Here are some screenshots from the movie.


Overall I'll rate it a 9.4/10

Leaving the impossible

Six years of playing pRO?

What can I say? NONE!! It's just sometimes I want to leave the whole community yet it's just impossible...


First and foremost the reason sometimes I want to leave the online gaming community FOR GOOD is because I just got tired... second is the pressure of being the guild master... it's just that some of my personal issues is being tied up because of too much playing... and third some financial issues... well you can't go head on other guilds without spending for ROK points...


And lastly... I'm just afraid that the girl I really love might stop playing because of me...


Yet I can't leave... The guild that started with only six members now grew to 20+ members. It became a family...


A guild that I can't leave because of that "family".

Inconsiderate fool

I don't know why... but it seems I'm the most inconsiderate fool... I've hurt her feelings... but I won't let this end like this... even if we'll go back to the beginning and even it takes a long time....

I've learned a important lesson from what I've done.... I won't do this ever again!

Gomenasai fiance....

New year, New challenges

I've been busy with so many things this past December 0'9 that even this my blog I've forgot to update XD


A lot of things happened to our guild... I didn't think that we overcome all of those challenges despite how big the problem is...

I'm proud of all the achievement of my guild members in-game or in real life.

Anyway... there is this girl that made my December warm... I just didn't expect her to come... but still I'm happy for us, Hoping that year 2010 will be good for us ^^

Year 2010 here I come!!